Well, the new energies have certainly been hitting me in big ways. November so far has been quite a transitional month and not an easy one for me and with it I have been battling with a new round of ascension symptoms. However, today I am feeling better and I would like to continue with the second part of my post. If you have not read ‘My ascension nightmare and how I got to where I am Part I’ you may want to drop in and read this first. For those of you who have here is part II.
So, let us rewind for just a minute and I will take you back a few years before we move on to the summer of 2007. In the last post I described to you my account and experience of a kundalini release. It wasn’t pretty and it completely uprooted every area of my life. As the planet is ascending the vibration of the planet is lifting due to the influx of energies being pumped into the universe. Many of us whether we are into new age spirituality or not are feeling some very strange side effects. Anxiety is the most common effect people are experiencing which brings on intense fear, we feel this because we are being forced to face ourselves and get to the root of our behaviourial patterns that do not serve our highest good. When my anxiety was at its worst my hands and body constantly shook and I would often hide my hands out of sheer embarrassment. It is becoming more common for people to experience spontaneous kundalini releases without even having to try, however, I do believe you will go through some physical preparations such as extreme anxiety and insomnia as the body prepares itself. Nevertheless, even if someone has had a kundalini release not everyone will experience what I have previously described. When my husband experienced his kundalini release, he developed kundalini flu which brought on alot of pain in his crown chakra and he felt like he was on fire for about 24 hours and then he got better. After that, it was over. He developed the ringing in his ears soon after but did not got the loud siren effects like I did.
So why was my kundalini release so difficult? This I do not know, and I am still trying to find the answers as there is so much to learn with all of this. If you read Karen Bishop’s account of her awakening or Lisa Renee they too discuss a not so pleasant experience. But, I do believe some of us will experience very strange symptoms as our kundalini releases and our pineal glands get activated.
I will say that I do not believe that my kundalini release was as spontaneous as I first believed. When I begin to look at the progression I went through I noticed a big change in myself towards the end of 1999 going into 2000. During this time I began experiencing extreme anxiety. I was constantly anxious, I could not sleep, I had constant panic attacks and I became more and more nervous as the years went on. From 2001-2003 I wrote Zoe Evans’ Possible Worlds the Crystal which acted as a great cathartic escape for me. I found myself channelling content for the book that I did not fully understand until my kundalini release and spiritual awakening years later. By 2003, I realised that I needed help and so I went to see a hypnotherapist. I did intense clearing work from 2003 until 2006 reliving all of the not so happy memories of my past and clearing them from my energy field. I began to feel better but the panic attacks still lingered as did the insomnia. My hypnotherapist suggested that I meditate on a regular basis which would help to calm my nerves. So I did, I meditated for about 20 minutes three to four times a week from 2003 until 2007. So when my kundalini released in the summer of 2007 I was catapulted into extreme anxiety once again and psychosis which I had never experienced before and I was completely shocked. I had been doing so much work on myself, clearing and releasing so why was this happening to me?
As in the Matrix when Neo is faced with the choice of taking the blue or the red pill Kundalini release, ascension, spiritual awakening, however you would like to describe the process will without a doubt shatter your current perceptions about everything. As my body cleared away all of the junk and debris of my past including any negative karmic patterns within my auric field, I was ready to be activated by the new energies that were being pumped into the solar system. I had lifted my vibration to such a level that these new energies vibrated within my DNA which signalled it was time for activation. The kundalini energy in my body and my pineal gland began to go to work. The ancients have always known about the power of the pineal gland or third eye. So have the Vatican and the masonic orders wich is a scary thought. To gain higher levels of consciousness it is necessary for the pineal gland to be activated as it controls the the third eye. The pineal gland is within the brain and effects what is perceived through the physical eyes and the senses. It is the bridge and regulates awareness between the physical and spiritual worlds. When the pineal gland is activated your perceptions and programming change. It is the gateway to higher knowledge and opening to the psychic realms.
When the pineal gland is activated a numbing sensation, or heaviness is felt in the base of the brain when you feel this know that great things are happening. You will also feel the pouring of energy coming through the top of your head through the crown chakra as it activates the pineal gland, and you will get a buzzing or ringing in the ear as the energies swirl around. Sometimes the sound can be loud and sometimes it is soft but it is best described as white noise.
So when my kundalini released my body became a christmas tree lit up with electrical currents running through all of its channels. I could no longer be the person I was it was time to change. From August 2007 until January 2008 I went through an accelerated learning curve spiritually. I wanted to learn as much as I could and information came flying at me from every direction. I was in constant pain as my crown chakra took in all of the new light and energy and I felt like an outsider from the 3-D world as my pineal gland had been activated and everything around me looked strange visually. The ringing in my ears was loud but began to get quieter as the months went by. I have always been into spirtual and metaphysical subjects, I have a degree in Philosophy, and I found a couple of books on my bookshelf on healing using crystals. I could not remeber buying these books but nevertheless they were there. I also found a book I had on healing using natural remedies such as flower remedies and decided to heal myself as my doctor was of no help whatsoever. His answer to my health problems was to put me on anti-depressants which I flatly refused. I also had a couple of sessions of acupuncture that helped me tremendously and the visual problems I had of everything looking flat and blurry eased with each session as my third eye began to reopen fully. Everything around me looked different when I regained my vision it was if a new sense of vision was given to me. I finally began to sleep better by November 2007 with the aid of prescription sleeping pills but I would only sleep for about 2 hours and then lay awake for another 2 hours this would go on all through the night every night for months. My body was being downloaded with energy, information, light and I would lay in bed and feel my whole body literally shake and vibrate as the kundalini moved up, down and through my chakra system. I was constantly hot and at night sweat would drop off of me and strangely I began to see number sequences such as 11:11, 9:11, 5:55, and on and on flashing on the clock. In December 2007 I experienced the phantom death phase, I literally felt myself die. I said good-bye to my husband expecting to physically die as I felt myself completely detaching from 3-d reality. I did not die, but I certainly did not return to the old 3-D world I was born into.
I did not learn what had truly happened to me until January 2008 when I stumbled upon a channeling from Kryon and a spiritual forum that helped me greatly, and then I realised there was a whole community of people going through the same thing as me. What a relief, I hadn’t been going crazy I was just experiencing a spiritual awakening.
In part III I will discuss the astrology of my kundalini release and spiritual awakening, as my whole life began to fall apart.
Valentine St Aubyn
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