Releasing the old 3D world and accelerating into 5D consciousness is hard work

There is no doubt that we are living in precarious times.  I often ask people that I know if they actually believe we are still living in the same world we were born into.  I often get a strange look but it’s not an odd question it just depends on the consciousness ladder you are residing on.  I have come to the conclusion that experiencing ascension is a strange ride.  When I listen to others who describe their kundalini awakening as a blissful moment full of love I have no idea what they are talking about.  My kundalini awakening was painful and brought on psychosis and soon after my life collasped and is still collasping as we speak.  I have previously written about my own experience of kundalini awakening in older posts so if you are experiencing this right now please look through the archives. 

 This phenomena which is being labelled ascension is meant to release you from the old level of consciousness you were born into and transform you into the true powerful being you truly are.  This in itself is fantastic I can’t tell you how much more clued in I am now since my kundalini kicked off which is a great gift.  I have also become more focused and eager to live my true purpose.  A few years ago I would not have had the confidence to be writing this blog.  But in the same breath I have become marginalised from friends and family and I often find myself alone as very few can relate to me as I have shifted and raised my vibration so much that I no longer resonate with the majority of those around me.  This is one of the biggest indicators that suggest you are leaving the old 3D world behind.  Everything that was created there has to be pruned, released and reborn.  This is not an easy journey there is alot of loss that is involved.  There is plenty of information about the shift of consciousness coming to this planet and when we look at what is happening in our world the collaspe is very evident.  It is a moderately slow collaspe not everything is disappearing all at the same time but the intensity is certainly gathering momentum.  And just as in the macro in the micro we are experiencing these shifts and changes in our own lives too.  Part of the old framework is still there but the background is shifting and changing. 

Although I am more than happy to leave the old 3D world behind I do wonder if the 5D ‘new’ earth will be a better place.  At the moment very few of us are there on a regular basis.  We are sort of in limbo probably popping in and out as we still have to have regular contact with the old ways.  Also, there is so much division and deception within the new age community that I’m of the belief that there is still a long road to travel down.  I can’t tell you just how much junk is out there at the moment and I as many others have fallen prey to it from time to time.  There are so many self proclaimed gurus telling us how we should feel and what is what, and to me this is disappointing.  I have always loved the metaphysical world from an early age but just as everything else is collasping to be reborn I would say that this area is not immune.  It too needs to be cleared out so that the new and genuine can be born in its place.

So, I imagine at least for the time being that the new 5D earth will still have some hurdles to overcome as we slowly make the shif towards this new consciousness.  For each of us that which is no longer working for us is currently being taken away whether we like it or not inorder for us to move forward.  Relationships are breaking down, friendships ending and money, well, that’s a whole other subject but let’s be honest it’s pretty non-existent for those of us currently making this shift.  How many of us have even managed to keep a roof over our heads in the last few years is a miracle to say the least.  It’s been a very difficult time for many.

Yes making this shift of consciousness is hardwork.  It is tiring physically and mentally.  The aches, the pains, the tears,  the disappointments.  Cleaning out the soul in order to shift vibrationally is not just about feeling at peace with oneself there are also some distressing moments that need to be embraced, understood and resolved.  And this is part of the true journey. We must learn to assimilate the light and dark within us.  Some days the dark wins and other days the light.  We are humans and these qualities exist within us equally.  So, don’t feel bad if you are not shifting to 5D consciousness peacefully.  Some days I go kicking and screaming, other days with pain in my heart.  This is hard work and there are many out there who do not understand what we are going through.  They are not into this and probably never will be.  It still doesn’t stop the fact that this is happening and they too are shifting even if  they do not realise it, so keep your head up and feel with your heart.  That which does not resonate with you does not have to become part of your belief system or be embraced by you. 

Valentine.

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Letting go of ego and discovering one’s soul

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Aurora Borealis - Auroras occur when charged particles outside the Earth's atmosphere collide with atoms in the upper atmosphere. The result: a glowing display of curtains, arcs, and bands in the sky. The phenomenon is called aurora borealis or northern lights

In a previous post I wrote about the deconstruction of our ego self in ‘The separation of the worlds’ article. In this article I would like to contine on with this theme as it has been playing a very important role in my own life over the last year.  I do believe when you reach a certain point along your ascension journey, after having a spiritual awakening, such as a kundalini event, questioning the new you that emerges cannot be ignored. 

Everything in your life comes up for reflection. You cannot hide from yourself as there is no where to run.  The you who you have always known and conversed with in the depths of your mind becomes altered and any belief systems that you have held are shattered systematically and dramatically.  A kundalini awakening can bring on an ego wipeout.  This is a term I have adopted from Noel Tyl, a renowned astrologer.  I certainly did experience this for myself when my solar arc midheaven conjuncted my natal neptune.  Reality as I new it disappeared into a forest of neptunian illusion, deception and destruction.  I have since rebounded and am coming to peace with myself and the new belief systems I have incorporated into my daily life.  I am certainly not the same person I was before my awakening and boy am I glad for that.

Before my kundalini awakening I would not have been able to distinguish  a difference between my soul and my ego.  So what is the difference you might ask as I can hear you saying this to yourself?  A year ago I would not have been able to offer any descriptions on this matter.  At that time I was still looking outside of myself to find the answers, there is nothing wrong with this of course it is how we learn, but using discernment I have learned is extremely important when you have experienced a kundalini awakening or any kind of spiritual emergency because at these times we are at our most vulnerable.  There is alot of deception in the spirtual community  and it is important to question the belief systems others are imposing on us albeit voluntarily as many of us want to unlock the mysteries around us.  It is also important to be aware of others who masquerade their egos purporting information that nobody else knows, leading you to believe that they are the only ones who can guide you to your desired goal.  This is why I enjoy the work of Karen Bishop.  She is simplistic in her approach, and stays away from hosting forums, having a facebook page etc, which of course are all trappings of ego whether we want to admit this or not.  She allows her message to speak for itself freely without charge for the most part and she doesn’t claim to know everything.

When I first had my kundalini awakening I experienced many physical and non-physical occurences in my body and around me.  Inside of me I felt as if someone turned a light switch on and I physically felt an inner warmness just under my heart chakra and above my solar plexus.  I had discovered the seat of my soul and was beginning to make contact with my higher self in a way that I had never done before.  Depending on how in tune I am with my higher self this feeling is either now always constant or drifts in or out.  I use it as a gage to decipher and encode if I am allowing my soul to guide me or if my ego has taken over.

The difference between those of us who have had a kundaini awakening and those who have not, I believe, can be found in how we express our ego selves.  Whether we like it or not our ego is expressed through our personality.  We cannot escape it.  In astrological terms it is our natal chart.  Our ego is a lense that we perceive the world through.  It controls our belief systems, our reactions to others and how we even sabotage and jeopardise ourself.  Our soul is our true essence and in astrology it is known as the draconic chart, when we consciously let go of our ego we are allowing our soul, the higher self of our essence to take over. 

I have been having many lessons that have been teaching me the necessity in letting go of ego.  For me, it has been through financial issues.  Yes, that’s right money problems.  When you cannot pay your bills and mortgage  you have only one option, let your ego go and ask for help!  A Christian would say put your faith in God, he will provide for you.  Whereas someone on a different spiritual path like myself would say let go and let your soul guide you.

I am certainly not going to purport that we can completely override our egos.  To be honest it is foolhardy to believe this.  Yet we can be more aware of our egos by letting go  and trying not to be in control all the time, when we begin to do this then we are truly beginning to be in line with our soul’s purpose.  Running to others to find the answers ceases to be important because the soul knows deep down inside and will eventually guide you, the ego doesn’t and will constantly produce feelings of fear and insecurity to get you to respond to the environment and obstacles in your way.

Valentine

My New Website

I’ll be back with another post soon but in the meantime I wanted to announce the launch of my website.  It is still in its early stages but it is ready for the public.  My novel Zoe Evans’ Possible Worlds the Crystal will be published by Booklocker in the next few months so keep checking the website and my blog for updates and information on how to obtain a copy.

Visit: www.valentinestaubyn.co.uk Feel free to give me your feedback on the website.

Bye for now.

Valentine

2010, Living with change and experiencing the new

Image of the destruction caused by the Hatian earthquake

Happy belated New Year and a warm welcome to all of you who have been visitors here on my blog and to all the new visitors.  I am relieved and delighted to see 2009 finally end.  I am sure I am not alone as many of us experienced the uneasy ups and downs last year brought.

It’s taken me almost 6 weeks to sit down and write to you all.  My soul has been wanting to but it’s as if I was asked to wait for the right moment.  2010 has come in quite dramatically for me, and if it has for me then it has for others as we are all connected at the higher levels.  Astrologically, I have read about the upcoming cardinal climax that will be occurring around the Spring and as always my body is feeling the incoming energies quite intensely.  2010 will be a dramatic year for the world so hold on to your seats. The energies are quite abrupt and I felt them intensifying during the last few weeks of December! Feelings of exhaustion have been plaguing me, and I am now determined to get to the root cause of it all.  Yes we are being pounded with energies from our solar system at a great level, but I gather I must have a block in one of my chakras as well. Working on ourselves never stops.

Nevertheless, I aptly named this article with the above title at the beginning of 2010.  Little did I know how relevant this subject would be on a micro and macro level.  The earthquake in Haiti certainly did announce that 2010 will be a watershed year.  I believe that over 200,000 Haitians have since died.  It is a mass departure of souls but yet it is likely that we have now entered a time period where more and more souls will leave allowing the new souls to arrive in the form of Indigo and Crystal children.  In my family, I had recently been given very bad news around the time of the earthquake.  An aunt of mine who I had many problems with over the years killed herself.  I will leave out all of the details but we had a very challenging relationship as she was not the easiest person ego wise to deal with.`Her departure has left a hole in our family.  Many of us question what we could have done differently to help her.  I feel everything happened the way it was supposed to, and she came into this incarnation to have the experience she did.  With her removal from my life there is a new energy that has emerged.  A new beginning if you like as I no longer have to be drawn into the negativity that came with our interaction. 

In addition, my long-term marriage and relationship has finally ended its course.  I have laboured for 3 years to hold on, but the necessary change is to hard to fight.  My husband and I will always love each other and we were great teachers to one another but as with everything happening now it is time to close one door and open another.

It seems that on a large scale this is happening to others too.  Negativity that once seemed to have full reign to create chaos is now breaking down.  Many souls who are not in tune with the new energies are leaving and many new souls are coming here to take their place.   I have just learned of the death of the Fashion designer Alexander McQueen.  It seems more and more high profile individuas are also choosing to leave at this time.  Interesting that he committed suicide just as my aunt did- the energies certainly seem to be pushing people to their limit at the moment.  For some it may be too much I feel. It is sad for many of us who are losing family members and friends, relationships, or our jobs, regardless there are alot of endings bouncing around in many of our lives. But there is also a certain amount of relief that is existent within all of this if only we see the other side of all of this change.  We have a chance to begin again.  Create a new world.

I believe that the new earth is here.  I feel I am living it daily.  I have little contact with the old world and many people  in it.  I work nights and use the time to prepare my novel which will be coming out soon. I have been working tirelessly on the editing of my manuscript before ‘I send it to my publisher.  I also use the time to write the second book in the series.  I enjoy the limited contact I have with the outside world and have been meeting nicer softer souls when at work.  They are not in tune with the metaphysical side, but they are good people nevertheless.

I can definitely feel that the new is here.  It may be shrouded around some sadness as we let go of our past but better times are ahead of us. 

Valentine St Aubyn

Our Solar System is heating up and we are evolving

Look very closely at this image

 

Milky Way galaxy

It’s very interesting that the talks in Copenhagen ended with a stalemate.  You have to be very careful with the press as it is their role to decieve, mislead and confuse us.  However, if you sift through all of the bullshit  that’s flying around it’s been interesting to watch how the press have been trying to blame everything on the Chinese, which is not the point.  The point is all of the big players including Europe, America and China do not want to make the necessary changes to tackle the climate problem, this cannot be blamed on one country.

So, where does this leave us?  It is hard to believe that the human race is on the brink of evolution. Looking at the recent attitudes of the world leaders this does not convince me that we are ready for the new Aquarian age, but alas supposedly we are.  However, I could be looking at things from the wrong angle or should I say dimension. I’ll get back to this shortly.

The word ascension is becoming quite the buzz word, but for those not in the loop many wonder what all of this is about.  The word is not a new one it has been bouncing around in religious circles for eons.  It often offers visions of somone like Christ floating on a cloud and rising to the heavens.  This type of ascension is no longer valid, although I wonder if it ever was.  The ascension that is being whispered about now is somewhat different and  involves the evolution of our DNA and the shifting of our consciousness as we remain in our bodies. Our climate is a big player as it is triggering us internally and most of us don’t even know it.

I’ll be frank, which is what I do best.  We are not being told the truth about the climatic changes taking place on our planet, however, the scientific community and those who run the show, are in the know.  I’ll give you an example. If you look at the front cover of  Al Gore’s documentary, ‘An inconvenient Truth’ you will see what appears to be smoke coming out of a chimney.  Look closely because that is not smoke it is our galaxy in disguise.  Some could argue that it might represent a cyclone storm, but I agree with David Wilcock it is definitely our galaxy.  So why is it being represented on the  front cover of Al Gore’s documentary, ‘An Inconvenient Truth?’  What is it that they know that they are not telling us?

Advertising poster for the last series of Dr Who for 2009

The powers that be communicate with us through symbolism, one of the experts at reading these signs has been Jordan Maxwell.  If you have not heard of him you definitely need to look into his work.  I’ll give you what seems to be an ‘innocent’ example of symbolism that I have discovered recently.  In England, the BBC have been working very hard to reinvent the long running Dr Who show –  I’ve watched a couple of episodes it seems to be entertaining.  The finale episode for 2009 with David Tennant  is called ‘The End of Time.’  A message is being tramsmitted here but you have to have your eyes and brain switched on to get the message.  All you have to do is look around and you can see all of the doom and gloom theories being thrown around.  Collective Consciousness is very vulnerable if you can keep the masses in fear then you can easily playout doom and gloom scenarios.  There is actually an even deeper meaning that I am also able to read.  The powers that be are letting you know that time in 3D reality is coming to an end and that a new consciousness is on the way.  Part of the predictions for the years around 2012 made by the Mayans and other North American cultures discuss the ‘end of time’ and in its place a new age is coming, in metaphysical circles this new era of time has been named the Age of Aquarius. 

What you will not be told by the news or any paid and bought for media outlets is that humanity is experiencing a shift in consciousness and scientifically this coincides with our DNA.  The warming of the solar system is having an impact on us directly.  Have you been experiencing severe anxiety, extreme insomnia, aches and pains,  is your life falling apart?  These are some of the symptoms and yes all of this is tied to 2012.  Leave the doom and gloom aside and understand that 2010 leading up to 2012 and beyond will be watershed years that will shake humanity and change the way we think.  There is nothing to fear except for change.  The human race will still be here beyond 2012 but you maybe become alot more enlightened along the way.

In a previous article, ‘It’s not just the planet heating up it’s the whole solar system’, I gave links to the scientific evidence that supports the fact that not only is our planet warming but so is our entire solar system.  This does not counter the argument that carbon emissions are not responsible for the rise in temperatures, but they are not the sole reason.  It is vitally important that carbon emissions be reduced as we are poisioning our planet and Mother Earth is not happy with this. I’m sure we will see the dire consequence of this later in the centuryas our leaders will fail to do anything about this until the very last minute.

Dimensionally, our solar system is lifting its vibration and it is ascending,  many of us have currently jumped ship and are existing dimensionally on the new earth in 5-D reality, while others remain on the old earth in 3-D. Lifting your vibration, the activation of your DNA and changing your perception of reality is currently what all of us are living with even if we do not know anything about ascension. These changes are going on within all of us whether we are aware or not.  The new earth with the new energy is here so expect to see some big changes in the next couple of years.  It is up to us to empower oursleves and read the scientific evidence for ourselves.  Do not just take my word for it research it yourself.  Do not just follow the news and assume they are telling you the truth, own your power.  Look at NASA’s website, research why the magnetic field has shifted incredibly in a short span of time.  Learn about the new children being born, the Indigos and Crystals.  You might have one yourself.  Open your mind and question what you see there is more to reality than what you have been told.

Valentine St Aubyn

Starting Anew

 

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If you search the internet for the definition of a lightworker or for the term ascension and ascension symptoms you will find pages and pages of content.  I’ll leave the ins and outs of all of these terms to the experts as there are great resources and people who describe very well what all of this means.  It seems that the lightworker world is being demystified and many more are waking up and coming on board.  I myself have noticed a difference in as little as two years with the amount of content available online, but I am not one of those who will gladly admit that as a whole the world is waking up.  My experiences confer the opposite and to my annoyance there are still many people out there who are still fast asleep and frankly don’t want to know about a ‘change’ coming to our world.  So what about those of us who are wide awake whether we like it or not? Yes we are lightworkers so now what?

We’ve experienced the life altering changes and regardless of what anyone says we are still going through them.   This in itself is a minefield to battle through as our personal lives may have changed but basic things like paying the mortgage or rent and paying our bills are still a big part of our reality, and juggling all of these along with these changes has stretched us beyond any rational limits.  Thank goodness, I have been able to enjoy a good night’s sleep for many months now even though 2009 has not been the easiest of years. Hopefully, many of you have as well.  During my darkest hours of ascension symptoms I would sleep for 2-3 hours a night, if even for that long, while feeling anxious and unsettled for the remainder of the night and day.  

If you read the myriad of material that is on the internet you will know that we have reached a milestone.  09.09.09 marked a closure between the old world and the new world to come.  From my assumptions, as I have been disconnected from many of my old friends and even family members and previous employment in an abrupt way over the last few months, I would say I have crossed over to the other side and the divide feels very much like a tidal wave crashing against rocks. Karen Bishop, whose words have kept me sane over the years, describes this new phase as a land to be yet created.  I feel deeply the emptiness and lack of energy she discusses in her latest wings post for the 22 Oct.09. So we wait for the new to arrive.  Many of us are finding that we can no longer put up with the same old characters and scenarios of the past.  Whether that be staying in our boring office jobs, keeping in touch with certain family members, or letting go of long-term relationships either through choice or by force.  Making it through all of the ascension symptoms, and life upheavals has put our shitometer at full and then some.  We just no longer can deal with it nor do we want to.  And this is why many of us have crossed over, we have hit a new level within ourselves created out of disappointment with a wish to make things better so they can stay better.

There seems to be a certain kind of sadness that accompanies being a lightworker.  We live in the light but as we transmute the darkness within ourselves and others it does something to us that changes everything that we are inside and out.  It is a difficult process and there are no rights or wrongs even though we are constantly judging our own faults.  I am looking forward to the new and connecting to those who have also crossed over.  I would be interested to hear how others have been surving through the rocky storms over the years.

Valentine St Aubyn