Mercury turns direct and clarity returns

Well, one thing is for certain, I’m so glad that this last mercury retrograde phase is coming to a close. I cannot stress how emotional of a period it has been for many of us. The energy out there was so chaotic that I had to really step back and take a breath. The last two weeks of April and early May were incredibly intense to say the least and I was like a yo yo having my insides turned upside down with emotion and confusion. It is hard for me to gage how the energies affect others on the outside world but I would have to guess that many have been on a knife edge. I have very little to do with the outside world these days, and I’m glad for that. I enjoy being in my cocoon. I spend my time writing and I work nights. Working nights has given me a much needed rest from annoying people and lower denser energies. The last few years were very volatile for me. As I transmuted and worked through many of my issues I was faced on several occasions in my professional life with hostility that was beyond the ordinary and bordered on outright violence. However, the challenges I went through from 2006-2009 in particular have brought me to where I am now. In a new space, where I am learning to re-claim my power. One of Steve Rother’s channellings summed it up for me very well, learning how to put self first has been a weakness I have suffered with for my entire life. Not that I have been a rug for others to walk all over but I have often found it difficult putting up boundaries. Well, now I no longer suffer from that and all the work I have done through my ascension process has brought me to this point, which I am very thankful for even though I have made it kicking and screaming.

I believe in these last few weeks I and many of us have been through another transmutation phase hence why at least for myself my emotions were so dark and I was all over the place. I am a naturally positive person with Sagittarius Rising ruled by Jupiter and although I have my down moments, feeling sorry for myself and wallowing in misery is not something I give into often. Yet, something very deep was taking place in these last couple of weeks and it was intensified by the Mercury retrograde phase. Mercury retrograde periods usually ask us to review and re-think things. It is not a time to initiate new projects and I can say this with certainty as I have tried to launch new projects during a Mercury retrograde period and they always need to be reviewed a few months later. Yet something was definitely afoot and I think many of us came to some heartfelt conclusions.

We’ve been down a long and hard road. I’m certainly not a first waver and can honestly say that I was not consciously aware of my ascension process until 2007, although I do believe I began my ascension awakening back in 2000. It took me years to figure out what was going on with me and when I finally learned it was this thing called ‘ascension’ I was relieved that I was not going crazy. But I have never fit into mainstream life and have often wished to be on another planet so thinking on these terms was not new for me anyway. The times we are now living in are certainly very trying and the energies are pushing us to continuously transmute and grow, it never stops for any of us. I constantly have to keep learning exactly what ascension and all that is related to it means.

And that is what I want to stress in this post. As the month of May opened Karen Bishop wrote one of her darkest Wings post I have ever read, and then on the 15th May she said good-bye to us.  I feel sad seeing her go.  Her energy alert posts put so much into perspective for me over the last few years and I honestly have to say that I resonated with her work.  However, it doesn’t surprise me that she is moving on as we are all being pushed to grow and to do more work.  I have found over the last year that the information that may have resonated with me a few years ago no longer remains true the way it first did.  I caught myself just a couple of weeks ago thoroughly disagreeing with David Wilcock on a few issues.  I’ve always enjoyed David’s work but now that he is becoming ever more mainstream I find myself sifting through the information he presents with a more critical eye than I have in the past.  Even the founders of Project Camelot who have given us some great whistleblower documentaries have fallen out with each other.  So, indeed nothing stays the same but then why should it anyway?

At the end of last year I wanted to connect with others out there like myself as I was feeling quite lonely. I found myself drifting into a particular forum which I will not name. I was vulnerable due to all of the chaos I had been through and was looking outside of myself to gain clarity. The funny thing is, I do not care for forums these days. They have helped me in the past but I have now moved on from them. Well, it simply wasn’t for me and some of the belief systems that were being purported were quite scary to be honest. The ideas were far too dark for my palette probably due to all of the transmuting and releasing I have done over the years.  But it helped me to realise something. I felt I was meant to experience this to help me understand that no one truly has all the answers. Others hold a belief system depending on the experiences and what they believe to be true but it doesn’t necessarily make it right. Discernment has become a very important tool for me and I always get cold ripples of energy moving through me if I read something that resonates with me.

I feel that more and more of us are becoming our own guidance. We’ve journeyed through our ascension process over the years, read a lot of material, educated ourselves but it is up to us to find the answers that fit the journey we are presently taking. So I would like to say thank you to Karen and many others who have helped me understand what ascension is over the years but I think it is now time for me to go more within to find the answers. Maybe that’s what this Mercury retrograde period was forcing many of us to discover. I do feel like doors closed there was a finality, a kind of death in the energy that was in the air which was very evident, which I myself fell prey to. But with every ending there is always a new beginning if you choose.

Valentine St Aubyn

 

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Volcanoes and earthquakes galore has the ‘Cardinal Climax’ arrived?

The huge plume of ash thrown from the Icelandic volcano

As 2010 arrived on the 1st January I knew that this would be a defining year.  Already at this point, I as many others such as yourself, was suffering with an overwhelming attack of fatigue and tiredness.  I have begun to put 2 and 2 together in the last few years and know whenever my fatigue levels hit an unbearable peak movement in the earth is a foot. 

I am what is termed an earth sensitive as many in the lightworker family are.  I literally feel the energy of Gaia and if it is heavy and unsettled then I am heavy and unsettled.  The earthquakes that have hit in Haiti, Chile, and China especially have left me feeling extremely tired and out of balance weeks before they occurred.  I have spent much of 2010 trying to keep myself awake as my body has been wanting to shutdown due to the influx of energy moving around the earth. Movement these days has translated into a great amount of seismic activity.  It is true the earth constantly experiences earthquakes on a regular basis, nothing new there.  But the amount of damage and the upheaval caused is what is defining the recent rise in seismic activity as above and beyond.  Steve Rother and the group have been very forward about their predictions advising us to look to the ‘Ring of Fire’ in the Pacific to have a high volume of activity in the coming years.  Both Haiti and Chile are included in these areas and the earthquakes we have seen there are by design and are no accident. 

However, not only are intense earthquakes something to be concerned about now we have volcanoes to contend with.  I personally have not come across any channelings from my regular sources such as Steve Rother, Karen Bishop, Lisa Renee or Kryon particluarly on volcanoes but I do know astrologers have been warning about the years of 2010 to 2014 as being fraught with tension and economic change.  Of course, natural catastrophes can also kick start economic problems and although many of us think we live in a society that is advanced and beyond ‘nature’ the recent explosion coming from a volcano in Icleand is forcing us to re-evaluate things, just a bit. 

I am based in Britain and here we have been hit hard by the ash plume that has invaded our skies thousands of miles above us.  This is where our planes fly and for the first time since World War II British airspace as well as European airspace has been shut down.  Which is unprecendented.  Airspace has been shutdown for almost 5 days causing many problems for travellers and airlines.  A review of this is now underway and by the 20th April flights at least on a small scale will begin again across Europe.

So what is going on and is this the beginning of the chaos that has been predicted by astrologers and intuitives? Last year I read a great article by an astrolger named Theodore White.  The article discussed the coming years from 2010 beginning with an alignment where many of the heavy hitting planets such as Pluto, Jupiter and Uranus would be moving into the early degrees of Cardinal signs.  (The article is provided in full below.)  In astrology the 0 degree is known as a critical degree.   Having a planet at 0 degrees Aries is very fortunate but it also carries a heavy punch.

Most likely the recent rise in seismic activity with high levels of damage and now a volcano eruption indicates to me that the ‘Cardinal Climax’ White has termed is building in intensity and most likely we will not begin to see the true fallout until June or July this year once Uranus enters Aries on May 27th 2010.  Keep in mind Aries is a fire sign and as Uranus is now entering into this sign I would expect unexpected eruptions of a volcanic kind to become big news in coming years. As Uranus rules the unexpected and accidents.

If you look at the picture above the ash cloud from a volcano in Iceland actually looks like a nuclear explosion.  And we have definitely been feeling an explosion of sorts here in Europe.  In Britain the news media have termed it as the ‘Ash Crisis’ causing untold amounts of damage to the economy.  The other point to keep in mind is what will happen when this cloud hits the ground? 

Astrologically there have been some good articles written about the timing of the eruption in Iceland.  Lynn Hayes discusses it on her blog, ‘Astrological Musings’ and others have looked into it finding some interesting tidbits of information.  Most likely we will be hearing alot more from Iceland before all is said and done.  In Europe, Iceland was one of the main contributors for the great crash that took place in 2008.  Many councils across the UK had invested great amounts of taxpayers money into Icelandic Banks, only to see the banks go bust.  I believe Iceland will be a major force in the coming shift so no wonder all eyes are on their volcanoes.

The volcano that has caused disruption is one of the smaller ones, if the bigger volcano decides to re-awken then what we have experienced will hit on an even bigger scale.

I would suggest that you get acquainted with the upcoming astrological alignments that is on the way.  The ‘Cardinal Climax’ which is just around the corner will no doubt wake many out of their slumber.  Because as far as I am concerned too many are still asleep.  One of the backlashes of the ‘Ash Crisis’ has shown how slowly European governments have acted to help bring those who are stranded home.  When the real shit hits the fan don’t look to the government to save you, if they can get out of it they will.  Inform yourself, be smart and listen to your intuition.  The earth feels all of our vibrations and she will keep you safe if you are meant to be here in years to come.

A special thought goes out to all of those who are are stranded and trying to get home.  As for us earth sensitives, I suppose we will keep doing the work we do when we spend the many hours asleep that we do as I believe on a higher level we are helping to keep the energy levels stable which of course makes us fatigued in our normal 3-D lives.  How long we can keep this going is anyone’s guess. As the earth changes may become too great for us to buffer in coming months and years.

Valentine St Aubyn

The Cardinal Climax & Global Transits of 2010

Economic & Social Phase Change & Peak Oil

A New World Era Dawns

©2009 By Theodore White, classical astrologer

Times are changing. Over the past two years, I’ve witnessed much of what I already knew over 10 years ago would be taking place as the decade of the 2000s drew to a close – an economic crisis the world over.

Astrologers who know about long-range global transits often are not believed when they warn about future trends; especially in the midst of booming economic prosperity, or, what economists call “Boom times.” Such as this most recent economic consume-and-spend era of the last 15 years.

Today, things have changed. Every day brings news of what many people feel is a coming depression. Rising unemployment in double-digits loses of homes and businesses to foreclosures have led to people very afraid of the future.

This is seen in the cases of increased murder-suicides, break-ups of families, relationships and marriages as whole communities weighed down under the onslaught of foreclosures are turning into ghost towns as retail shops, and malls shut down amid deterioration of 20th century infrastructures worldwide. Global trade has slowed to a crawl, increasing the worries about what the future holds.

World transits indicate that the current world economic crisis began quietly in August 2006, when a series of New Moon cycles started on August 23, 2006, with a new moon at 0-Virgo, leading to the New Moon of September 22, 2006 at 29-Virgo. This cycle began the shocking fallout in the world financial sectors

People the world over are very stressed out. What comes now?

“The US is doing everything possible to avoid these awful realities, but probably the worst self-deception is the idea that everything would be okay if we could just “re-start lending.” That’s just not going to happen, says James Howard Kunstler.

A former writer for Rolling Stone, the author of eight novels, and a regular contributor to the NY Times Magazine, Kunstler comments on a wide variety of issues from architecture, urban planning, to energy and economic issues. These days, he has taken aim on the unprecedented world economic crisis.

A firm believer in ‘peak oil,” Kunstler says the world economy is now in major transition and will continue to head downward until the globe gets itself un-addicted to the oil in the ground that is running out.

“The banking fiasco has introduced so much noise into the system that world leadership can’t think straight,” Kunstler says. “What they’re missing is real simple: peak oil means no more ability to service debt at all levels, personal, corporate, and government. End of story.”

“All the other exertions being performed in opposition to this basic fact-of-life amount to a spastic soft-shoe performed before a smokescreen concealing a world of hurt,” Kunstler says.

“If the ‘quantitative easing’ (money creation) and fiscal legerdemain (TARPs, TARFs, et cetera) happen to jack up the “velocity” of the new funny-money, and the world resumes its previous level of oil use, the price of oil would rise again — this time astronomically because the previous crash of oil prices crushed the development of new oil projects to offset depletion — and the global economy will crash again,” he points out.

Moreover, “there is no more capacity to service the debt we’ve already piled on, “Kunstler says about the 2008 economic crisis. “Americans borrowed too much, and the bankers who made obscene fortunes in fees and bonuses in fraudulent lending managed to leverage this un-payable debt into the greatest collective swindle the world has ever known. The swindle has sent poison into every cell of the macro socio-economic organism, and further swindles are unlikely to revive it.”

Since the peak of the downfall of the financial center in New York in September 2009, the world over the last six months has been in a state of utter shock as sinking GDPs, double-digit unemployment, bank closings, and business and trade contraction has rippled through the entire globe.

The losses as of April 2009 in the United States alone seems to confirm Kunstler’s comments:

· $213 million – Bonuses at American International Group (AIG)
$1.6 trillion – All AIG Toxic Assets
$8 trillion – Losses in Stock Market
$5 trillion – Losses in Real Estate
$35 trillion – Unfunded Medicare Debt
$20 trillion – Unfunded Social Security Debt
$24 trillion – Toxic Assets Held in European Banks
$500 trillion – Total Derivatives Market

Kunstler says that the next phase of this “poison” in the world’s financial system is sure to move beyond the financial, and into the social and political arenas.

“Disorder of various kinds will rule — toppled governments, civil unrest, international tension and conflict,” he points out.

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Indeed, since the end of the solar year of 2008, many nations have been on the verge of revolution, with anti-government and anti-banking protests taking place in countries throughout the European Union, with disturbances in Russia, Asia, and in a most calm state like Iceland, where the government was forced to resign en masse in January 2009 after Iceland’s currency lost more than half its value.

In the United States, protests are already taking place with anger building daily with news of corruption and multi-million dollar bonuses for CEOs at companies at the heart of the economic crisis.

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“The socio-political fallout from the inherent anger and disappointment in all this is liable to be severe,” Kunstler says. “The public is already warming up for it, with cheerleaders such as Glen Beck on Fox TV calling for the formation of militias, and gun sales moving out-of-sight. One mistake that the banking elite and their lawyer paladins made the past decade was their show of conspicuous acquisition — of houses especially — in easy-to-get-to places where anyone can see them, for instance an angry mob in Fairfield County, Connecticut, or Easthampton, New York.”

“We have no previous experience with this type of social unrest. Kunstler says.” The violence of the Vietnam era will look very limited and reasonable in comparison — in the sense that it was an uprising on the grounds of principle, not survival. And the Civil War was a wholly regimented affair between two rival factions.

“This time, people with little interest in principle beyond some dim idea of economic fairness, will be hoisting the flaming brands out of sheer grievance and malice,” Kunstler says.

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Kunstler adds that, “President Obama will have to starkly change his current game plan if this outcome is to be avoided. I think he’s capable of turning off the mob — of preventing the grasshoppers from turning into ravening locusts — but it may take an extraordinary exercise in authority to do it, such as the true (not pretend) nationalization of the big banks, engineering the exit of Ben BernankeBen Bernanke from the Federal Reserve, sucking up the ignominy of having to replace failed regulator Tim Geithner in the Treasury Department, and calling out the dogs on the swindlers who had the gall to play their country for a sucker.”

Sadly, looking at the world’s astrological transits just ahead in the early 2010s, I would have to agree. We are in the last year of the first decade of the 21st century. From an astrological perspective, the true start of this new century begins in 2011, when a series of positions of the outer planets (Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus and Pluto) begin to form powerful configurations among themselves on, or very near the Earth’s seasonal points.

Called the Cardinal Climax, the outer planets will touch upon the early degrees of the cardinal signs of Aries, Libra and Capricorn, forming strong squares and oppositions that are sure to heighten world tension in the midst of the economic collapse. Astrologers who are aware of these coming planetary configurations continue to be amazed at the power of these outer transits that peak in the years 2010 through 2014.

From this view, the year of 2010 is a key year as the world enters the second decade of the 21st century. As the world nears the year 2011, it is in a state of economic panic and decline. Clearly, the legacy era of the latter half of the 20th century is coming to an end, and a new era is on the horizon.

Kunstler states that the American standard of living as defined in the late 20th century “has got to come way down.”

What does he mean by “come way down?”

“What’s going on now is nature’s way of telling you that America’s standard of living has to be reduced by something between 20 and 50 percent. You can have it in the form of a compressive deflationary depression, including widespread bankruptcies… or you can have by way of inflation, in which money loses its value.

“But there’s one basic qualification to this: the way down is not symmetrical with the way up. That is, it’s really not just a matter of ratcheting down to a standard of living half of what it was, say, in 2006, because in the event all the various complex systems that support everyday life enter failure mode before our society re-sets at a theoretically lower level of equilibrium.”

Kunstler elaborates: “By this I mean our methods for getting food, for moving about the landscape, for deploying capital, for trading and manufacturing, for schooling, doctoring, and running public services all destabilize and, to some degree or other, fail to deliver their contribution to normal daily life. Banking (capital deployment) is already mortally wounded. It remains to be seen how this will affect the food supply half a year ahead in the harvest season.

He paints a picture where “capital is as big an ‘input’ for our method of farming” as diesel fuel or fertilizers when created from methane gas. “The failure of banking will combine with city and state insolvency to crush public transit, law enforcement, fire protection, and whatever flimsy local safety nets exist to keep the ultra-poor and helpless from die-off.”

“The lowering of living standards by 20 to 50 percent essentially eliminates all but the must critical commerce, meaning that most of the stores in the malls and strip malls lose their customers and shed employees,” he says, “while the mall and strip mall owners lose their rents, and the bankers lose performing commercial real estate loans. As all this occurs, tax revenues go way down; schools can’t pay their employees or buy diesel fuel for their yellow bus fleets.”

So, according to this scenario, many more people could lose their health insurance with hospital becoming overwhelmed and western-styled health care lowers to levels of the Third World. “

“Meanwhile, pensions are destroyed; the elderly live on dog food and ketchup. . .” Kunstler points out like something out of a bad Ayn Rand novel.

“This is where we’re headed,” Kunstler surmises.” It could easily be worse than the 1930s, when we still had plenty of family farms, plenty of oil, plenty of factories in good running order, and a highly regimented population of workers unaccustomed to luxury, leisure, and entitlement.”

As spring takes shape in the northern hemisphere, most of the world already is very much aware of the global economic downturn that has affected every area of life and industry worldwide.

Trade has nearly ceased between nations; banks have not been lending, home values continue to fall worldwide, and construction of new houses and commercial buildings has completely halted.

“We’ve hardly begun to see the potential political repercussions of economic disorder now underway,” Kunstler states. “I think it will start to show in a big way not long after Memorial Day, when the current false euphoric Wall Street rally ends in yet another pool of tears, and the despair trickles downward.”

Hear what Gerald Celente forecasts for 2009 ~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FTIW9mOKU4s&feature=PlayList&p=75A133212B0265E4&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=25

“A crucial piece of the outcome depends on what happens over at Attorney General Eric Holder’s Justice Department – which lately seems to have seceded from the federal government,” Kunstler says. “A peeved public is going to start wondering why the bankers and insurers have not been called in by the criminal division to do a little ‘splainin’. As the spring yields to summer, the Obama team’s current fix-it plans are also likely to have run out of credibility. Mr. Obama better be prepared to get a new game.”

We mortgaged our future and the future has now begun,” he says. “Tough noogies for us. But the broad public won’t accept the reality of this as long as the grandees of finance and their myrmidons appear to still enjoy the high life.”

“They’ve got to be brought down hard,” Kunstler believes. “Perhaps even disgraced and humiliated in the courts, and certainly parted from some of their fortunes — if only in lawyer’s fees. Obama pretty much served notice to this effect (in early April 2009) telling a delegation of bankers in the White House that he was the only thing standing between them and ‘the pitchforks.’ It’s possible he understands the situation.”

World Transits: The Cardinal Climax

The Astrological Year of 2009 will undoubtedly be the first full year of the beginning of the transition from the legacy world of the 20th century, into the new era of the 21st century.

By the year 2010, the outer planets of Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus and Pluto will form a series of squares and oppositions touching on the seasonal cardinal points of Aries, Libra, and Capricorn, forming what is known as the “the Cardinal Climax” – a major series of T-square aspects that will rotate the world in 2010, and early 2011.

Cardinal signs are “initiating” and often, when the superior planets are involved in such configurations, the world is influenced by a series of major problems that can be difficult to resolve immediately.

Saturn/Pluto world squares are mainly unfavorable, and can lead to rigid attitudes among people that can lead to power struggles as a result of economic, political and professional plots. Pluto’s position in Capricorn indicate that the wealthy are involved, and Saturn’s coming transit in tropical Libra squares Pluto, indicating that the struggles against widespread corruption will heighten in 2010.

Jupiter will form its first square to Pluto in July 2010, and again in February 2011. These squares continue the power play influences of the earlier Saturn/Pluto square, where forceful tactics are employed using cultural, philosophical or religious means to force others to reform, or to use dishonest means to obtain power and status. Conflicts over finances and outdated modes of doing business are continued under this Jupiter/Pluto square where sustained struggles against corruption and established power bases heighten. The problems of pride, arrogance, and yet neglect over small, but important details are common under this Jupiter/Pluto configuration.

The problems inherent in the world’s financial and political systems have been witnessed throughout the globe since the first of several Saturn/Uranus oppositions began in November 2008. Saturn/Uranus oppositions are well-known among mundane astrologers for clearly showing conflicts between old and newer ways of doing things.

This is mainly expressed through polarizations between existing power structures and generations and younger generations and newer power structures emerging. The clashes within professional classes often extend into the personal sphere of relationships under a Saturn/Uranus opposition with relationships that once were important and needed for the security of all are threatened by inconsistent behaviors; especially through frustrations that come from the need to change existing conditions.

Adding to the Saturn/Uranus opposition, is the coming Jupiter/Saturn opposition from 2010-2012. Occurring every 20 years, the last Jupiter/Saturn opposition happened in the years 1990-1992.

This particular opposition from 2010-2012 occurs along the Pisces/Virgo and Aires/Libra axis. Most Jupiter/Saturn oppositions signify major changing times, and also can indicate poor timing in business matter and problems within professional and personal affairs as well.

Bureaucratic red-tape is a common complaint during such Jupiter/Saturn oppositions, and the frustrations that build up as a result can be unleashed in public, sometimes in violent manner.

The conflicts that are influenced by Jupiter/Saturn oppositions can adversely affect personal matters, friendships and relationships that were once seen as positive. Ethics can suffer, and hypocrisy often arises under this planetary opposition where once stable professional and personal relationships can suffer.

One of the reasons why it is so important for the world economic crisis to be solved before the next decade matures is because of the coming Uranus/Pluto square from 2012 to 2018. The slowness of the outer planets makes such unfavorable aspects much more powerful, as this particular global aspect will last for nearly seven years before all is said and done.

Uranus’ entry into tropical Aries, briefly in June, July, and August 2010, and then fully by mid-March 2011, indicates a new world era. Uranus is ending an 84-year cycle it began in 1928, and by March 2011, Uranus will start a new cycle that is important in mundane world affairs.

With Uranus entering the seasonal vernal equinox point of 0-Aries in March 2011, the world will surely be on the precipice of what can truly be called the start of the 21st century.

For 15 months from its first full ingress into Aries in March 2011 to the month of June 2012, Uranus will mainly be un-aspected by major outer planets until it forms its first exact square to Pluto in Capricorn in late June 2012.

These 15 months from March 2011 to June 2012 provides a “grace period” where many positive accomplishments can be made to greatly reduce the volatile energies to come – particularly from June 2012 to spring 2014, and again, from the years 2015-2018.

From June 2012 on, transiting Uranus and Pluto will square one another consistently, within orb of one another, until the year 2018. This has major ramifications for the world as Uranus/Pluto squares in the Signs of Aries and Capricorn influence powerful global rebellious tendencies that could lead to the near collapse of governments, and in some cases, outright revolutions taking place in several countries worldwide.

The cardinal square of Uranus in a violent Sign of Aries forces established structures (Capricorn) to often respond ruthlessly to problems that has long been allowed to fester without resolution.

This can lead to events on large-scale events such as revolutions that can overwhelm establishments that have not adjusted from the transition from the legacy era of the late 20th century to the new era of the 21st century.

Dangerous situations can arise during Uranus/Pluto squares where people may have to face potentially life-threatening situations not initiated by them, but forced on them nonetheless because of events affecting large numbers of people.

Sudden financial losses can also come under this transit if finances are not handled properly. Power struggles to and within corporations, as well as outright public rebellions are a constant threat under this Uranus/Pluto square due to the failure of established power structures to concede power, or who have become too conservative, rigid, and unyielding in their philosophy as to have outlived their usefulness.

The failure of individuals, groups, organizations, corporate and government leaders, to use the 15-months of Uranus’ first transit of tropical Aries will surely lead to great upsets that will shake the foundations of all existing structures, and, in the cases of many, destroy them for good.

One of the most serious problems concerning The Cardinal Climax world transits of 2010/2011 will be in the proper use of Time. From my perspective, the wasting of valuable time by not resolving outstanding problems before these outer planets configure is a direct cause of the later, more serious events to take place worldwide in the 2010s.

The best way to counter the most powerful malefic transits of the 2010s is for many people, groups, organizations, governments and nations to freely admit that times are changing, and to make serious and lasting adjustments to the way business is done, and how society must work together positively, before the world transits configure into unfavorable positions.

One of the ways the planet’s energies affect the world is through the lack of use of positive free will, and the allowance of negativity to dominate until the malefic influences build to a crescendo.

For much of 2009, transiting Jupiter will conjoin Chiron and Neptune in tropical Aquarius as transiting Saturn continues its oppositions to Uranus in Pisces throughout the year while Saturn moves into its first major square to Pluto in Capricorn by November 2009, and throughout much of 2010.

However, the months of July through November 2009 contain some of the best world transits to make progress for those people willing to adapt, which can be continued into the early months of 2010, just before the Cardinal Climax transits of summer 2010 come into play.

Trends show that local businesses through the work of entrepreneurs can see opportunity in these times, according to the trend research of Gerald Celeste of New York’s Trends Institute, who highlights the commercial crash of retail in 2009, his trends for 2009, and about his difficulty in taking out money from his hometown bank.

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James Kunstler says,“Lending on the scale that became normal over the last decade is for sure the one thing that we will not recover. We turn around in 2009 to find ourselves a much poorer nation than we thought we were a year ago, especially among that broad range of formerly middle-class wage-earners who lived so luxuriously until yesterday. The public can’t process this reality, and the president, for all his relaxed charm, is either not ready to articulate it, or can’t process it himself.

My New Website

I’ll be back with another post soon but in the meantime I wanted to announce the launch of my website.  It is still in its early stages but it is ready for the public.  My novel Zoe Evans’ Possible Worlds the Crystal will be published by Booklocker in the next few months so keep checking the website and my blog for updates and information on how to obtain a copy.

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Bye for now.

Valentine

2010, Living with change and experiencing the new

Image of the destruction caused by the Hatian earthquake

Happy belated New Year and a warm welcome to all of you who have been visitors here on my blog and to all the new visitors.  I am relieved and delighted to see 2009 finally end.  I am sure I am not alone as many of us experienced the uneasy ups and downs last year brought.

It’s taken me almost 6 weeks to sit down and write to you all.  My soul has been wanting to but it’s as if I was asked to wait for the right moment.  2010 has come in quite dramatically for me, and if it has for me then it has for others as we are all connected at the higher levels.  Astrologically, I have read about the upcoming cardinal climax that will be occurring around the Spring and as always my body is feeling the incoming energies quite intensely.  2010 will be a dramatic year for the world so hold on to your seats. The energies are quite abrupt and I felt them intensifying during the last few weeks of December! Feelings of exhaustion have been plaguing me, and I am now determined to get to the root cause of it all.  Yes we are being pounded with energies from our solar system at a great level, but I gather I must have a block in one of my chakras as well. Working on ourselves never stops.

Nevertheless, I aptly named this article with the above title at the beginning of 2010.  Little did I know how relevant this subject would be on a micro and macro level.  The earthquake in Haiti certainly did announce that 2010 will be a watershed year.  I believe that over 200,000 Haitians have since died.  It is a mass departure of souls but yet it is likely that we have now entered a time period where more and more souls will leave allowing the new souls to arrive in the form of Indigo and Crystal children.  In my family, I had recently been given very bad news around the time of the earthquake.  An aunt of mine who I had many problems with over the years killed herself.  I will leave out all of the details but we had a very challenging relationship as she was not the easiest person ego wise to deal with.`Her departure has left a hole in our family.  Many of us question what we could have done differently to help her.  I feel everything happened the way it was supposed to, and she came into this incarnation to have the experience she did.  With her removal from my life there is a new energy that has emerged.  A new beginning if you like as I no longer have to be drawn into the negativity that came with our interaction. 

In addition, my long-term marriage and relationship has finally ended its course.  I have laboured for 3 years to hold on, but the necessary change is to hard to fight.  My husband and I will always love each other and we were great teachers to one another but as with everything happening now it is time to close one door and open another.

It seems that on a large scale this is happening to others too.  Negativity that once seemed to have full reign to create chaos is now breaking down.  Many souls who are not in tune with the new energies are leaving and many new souls are coming here to take their place.   I have just learned of the death of the Fashion designer Alexander McQueen.  It seems more and more high profile individuas are also choosing to leave at this time.  Interesting that he committed suicide just as my aunt did- the energies certainly seem to be pushing people to their limit at the moment.  For some it may be too much I feel. It is sad for many of us who are losing family members and friends, relationships, or our jobs, regardless there are alot of endings bouncing around in many of our lives. But there is also a certain amount of relief that is existent within all of this if only we see the other side of all of this change.  We have a chance to begin again.  Create a new world.

I believe that the new earth is here.  I feel I am living it daily.  I have little contact with the old world and many people  in it.  I work nights and use the time to prepare my novel which will be coming out soon. I have been working tirelessly on the editing of my manuscript before ‘I send it to my publisher.  I also use the time to write the second book in the series.  I enjoy the limited contact I have with the outside world and have been meeting nicer softer souls when at work.  They are not in tune with the metaphysical side, but they are good people nevertheless.

I can definitely feel that the new is here.  It may be shrouded around some sadness as we let go of our past but better times are ahead of us. 

Valentine St Aubyn

The separation of the worlds, and experiencing the deconstruction of our ego selves

Throughout my whole life I have done alot of soul searching.  I’ve never been willing to accept everything I read and hear and have always dug further under the surface.  That’s why at age 13 I read the bible  trying to understand the message that was presented and thought that I would be going to hell because I just wasn’t able to believe that the Christian God was a loving and caring creator, he could not scare me into believing.  At age 19 I was reading about the history of various revolutions and counter revolution campaigns created by the CIA to stop them.  By age 21 I was learning about mind control and how advertising is built upon subliminal messages that make you want to buy what they are selling, and of course sex is used as the master manipulator in their campaigns.  All in all I was never a willing participant in the world I was born into and have been ostracised for my beliefs over the years. 

Many of us share these experiences of not easily being decieved, supposedly it is an Indigo trait, we are the oddbins of society and live on the fringes poking fun at the mainstream.  And then here comes what so many have termed ascension.  We are blasted even further away from the mainstream and have no desire to play ball or go back to the old world that we never cared much for anyway.  Our egos begin the process of deconstruction and before we even have time to digest and think about what has happened to us  in a flash our lives are truly changed forever.  It would be nice to put a ‘The end’ caption to wrap this up but as many of us have learned the work still continues, and most likely will for the rest of our lives.

This last year has for me been one of the most challenging.  In particular I have found the energies since the summer solstice to be extremely revealing and intense.  The one thing I have learned about the ascension process is that you, meaning the you that is conscious and having an experience, the ego, is relentlessly stripped and cleansed step by step, over and over, layer by layer.  There is no right or wrong in the process and everyone will have experiences that reflect the reality they believe to help them transform and grow.  But when you hit certain ‘ingrained and stubborn programs’ within yourself that’s when the fireworks really take off.

I have managed to hit a few of my own ‘immovable’ programs which I didn’t even realise were there and have actually managed to surprise myself in new and bizarre ways.  I have been learning alot about reality and my point of perception over the last few months.  And have fully accepted that to change the outside world we must first start with ourselves on the inside, because we are the creators of what we feel, hear and touch.  I have hit a new phase with myself and have begun to see just how programmed I am, and do you know what, I don’t like it.  The truth is we are all programmed it is the price we pay to live in 3D reality, think of it in terms of the matrix.  The trick is realising that it is happening to you and then trying to break free from it, at least step by step. It is the choice between the blue or the red pill. 

I’ve been reading alot about the separation of the old 3D world and how we will be creating a new world which many of us are now existing in.  I’ll leave the questions of did we miscalculate or get it wrong for others to answser, as I really do not know, and to be honest I am glad I was removed from the old 3D world even if it is only dimensionally.  What I have begun to fully realise and integrate within myself is that I cannot begin to create the new until I get a handle on my old programming.  The programming comes in many forms such as;  that government is here to help us – wrong, and we as a collective are definitely seeing this for ourselves, or at least some of us are.  That Hollywood makes cute and inocuous movies, wrong, Hollywood is one of the main programmers and we should not take what we see lightly.  Until I get a handle on my own belief systems, my old shit keeps rearing its ugly head, which is putting a damper on the new life I am trying to create for myself in this new world.

 And this is what has been throwing me for a loop because there is alot of stuff within myself that has helped me over the years to create the world I see and it hasn’t all been bad, just 90% of it.  Now, it is all being broken down and eroded away and it feels very unsettling.  To be honest, I am surprised that I have so many triggers, but I do, and it is a part of living in 3D reality, but it is now time to move beyond them.

The separation from the old 3D world is a challenge for those of us taking part.  We can no longer hide from ourselves or skip along without looking at our belief systems. Quite the contrary,  to create the new we have to completely let go of the old and that includes how we have always thought of ourselves, what we truly want in our lives and who we want around us.  I have spoken to a few people about the economy and have realised that they basically want to keep the same old system with a few new changes.  But I don’t, I’m so tired of money and I would love a new world without the care of money.  And I think this is what makes us different from so many others, we’ve just basically had enough of all of it and it is time to completely change it all. 

In a short time I have lost some really close people to me because of the new ways that I think and to be honest I spend most of my time alone.  My old world has been shattered, and is currently being realigned.  I am not bitter but maybe a bit sad that I have to leave people I care about behind, but we are all free to think for ourselves and choose what is best for us on this journey. 

Valentine St Aubyn

Back to life and out of the void

I love the synchronicity of things it’s like the sprinkling of fairy dust! After I wrote my last post ‘Life in the void, being broke, and loving every minute of it?’ I visited Karen Bishop’s website, who is one of my favourite energy readers, and I was so pleased to see her post from the 18th November 09,   The Opening of 11:11 and the New Energy Surge , literally within minutes of reading her post my phone began to ring and I was invited for an interview for a part-time post I had applied for.  The office I had been working at on a temporary basis also got in touch later that day needing me to come in once again to help out in the coming weeks.  Since the 19th of November I have been out of the void and existing on the fringes of 3-d reality.  I say this because as the 09.09.09 portal separated the old 3-d world from the new world I have noticed that my contact with others has been very limited.  Even the new part-time job I have is working during the nights, keeping me safe from the harsher energies as my body has now become extremely sensitive to the lower denser energies.

In my last post ‘Life in the void, being broke, and loving every minute of it?’, I described the process of what life was like when going through periods of what is termed ‘in the void’.  During the process of ascension or spiritual awakening, these quiet moments are extremely important.  As the body is lifting its vibration, purging and releasing the most one can do  is get lots of rest, cry if you need to, drink plenty of water and get out of the way of our higher selves, so that we can create the necessary connections for our next phase.  These void periods come in cycles and there is no exact time frame for how long they last.  I have had void periods that last only for a couple of months to almost a year.  It really depends on how much processing and releasing your body needs and how you react to the process. 

From the many responses I have had privately and here on the blog many of you are also experiencing this, which is very normal and common for those of us now choosing to awake.  So, some of you may just be entering void periods and others may be coming out and reemerging once again.  There is no right or wrong and we are all moving along on different timelines to get to the same point, it is all part of the process.  So enjoy these times and think about what you truly want in your life and what you no longer will tolerate.

Now, more than anytime our lives are being dismantled and restructured as we hurdle towards 2012 and beyond.  2012 is not about the end of the world,  this is an old timeline that has been eradicated with the energy of the harmonic convergence. It will however be very much a marker of new beginnings for our new ways of life and what we belive is ‘real’.  For me I forsee 2012 and the next two years 2010 and 2011 ushering in the dismantling of our mind control programmes for those that want to awake.  When you move beyond the manipulation and mind control programmes of the 3d world you really understand just what is going on in our world, and it ain’t pretty… at all.  I am not convinced that everyone will wake up or that we will all hold hands and sing songs of love.  There will still be alot of problems to overcome, but I do believe it will become harder for our governments to decieve us, and for us to decieve ourselves, at least for a small percentage of us.

So while you experience your void periods try to relax and know that you are being guided.  When it’s over, you will soon be busy and will want another rest soon.

Valentine St Aubyn

Life in the void, being broke, and loving every minute of it?

Without a doubt 2009 has been a very difficult year for me as it has been for many others going through deep and profound changes.  For me it’s been a long cycle which started in full in 2007 and has lingered ever since.  I have been reshaped, reformed, cleansed, purified, turned upside down and inside out, removed, detached, abused and loved and have experienced every emotion that is possible to describe with human words.  I have cried and laughed and felt completely no emotion at all wondering what in blazing saddles is going on in my life.  Unfortunately, I wasn’t born with being able to see through dimensions or have conversations with star beings which I would have loved to of had but I was born quite sensitive and have the ability to feel energy at a deep level.  I’m glad there are others out there such as Karen Bishop, Lisa Renee, Steve Rother who have this talent and can articulate what is happening to us as it is such a transformative journey and we all need help and guidance along the way. 

Over the last few years, as I have been on my ascension journey, I have gone through a few cycles where I have been completely withdrawn from the world around me.  I can’t say I mind, I do not care much for mainstream life and would very much like to go and live on a much more sophisticated and loving planet.  However, for now I am here and so I and many of us who are sensitive to the denser energies are trying to make the most of it.

Over the last few years I have noticed a distinct and reoccurring pattern that exists.  I enter into moments of complete detachness where absolutely nothing happens in my life for months and months and at the moment I am in another one of those phases.  For me it began in September with the 09.09.09 portal.  The phone stopped ringing,  the temporary job I had folded and everything around me halted, except for the creative work I am doing for my novel that will be published early next year.  This phase is often described as the ‘void’  and is a big part of ascension and many of us have and are currently experiencing this.  I will leave the more technical aspects of the cleansing and purging that comes with this to the experts but the void is a necessary phase that happens in cycles as our bodies assimilate the new energies that are being pumped into the planet.  During these periods I am always out of work whether I like it or not, can only focus and concentrate for short periods of time, am completely removed from others, and spend alot of time in my own home and pretty much feel like doing very little.  In 3-D reality we are taught we must have a job,  we should always be doing something and working ourselves to death to show just how successful we are.  So, when you jump out of 3-D reality and move into the higher realms we soon realise there are many levels where work can occur that do not adhere to the rules of 3-D perception.  And although we may have alot of work to get on with such as creative projects or planning our new businesses we just can’t muster enough energy to sit and do it all day as we could in the past.

I find life in the void scary and comforting all at the same time.  I am always working through alot within myself during these periods and spend alot of time crying and releasing as I often feel very alone and detached from everyone and everything around me.  My crown chakra tends to hurt alot and the laying down position is my favourite as it makes me feel at ease.  I always manage to get sick.  And this cycle is no different I have had the flu, vomitted, been having stomach aches, and have felt absolutely exhausted even though I have been getting plenty of rest and have been able to relax all day long.  However, unfortunately I have a mortgage and bills to pay so although we are being asked by the higher levels to use this time and transmute and process I find it very hard to fully relax. 

I have to admit somehow my financial needs are strangely being met.  They do not all get met,  if I may add, but I still have a roof over my head and I have been through a few phases of the void in the past and have come out at the other end still standing and with a home.  I eat regularly so much so that I’ve managed to put on weight and I am not someone who puts on weight easily.  As everything in my life has been stripped away I do not have many material things left, I have no car to maintain and no credit cards to worry about everything has been shaved down to the bare mininum.  This also includes personal relationships including my marriage which has experienced many ups and downs over the last few years and at the moment my husband and I have been separated from each other.

I am broke, and forced to accept help from others, something that does not sit well with me as I have always worked for everything I have.  Even when I try to help myself and look for work I am rudely reminded that I no longer belong in the old world.  This week I recently tried to join an agency to look for employment.  Although my novel will be available to buy at the beginning of next year and I am trying to become self employed delivering historical workshops, I still need outside help financially.  I was rudely turned away as I was not able to pass a credit check to get a particular job, have you ever heard anything so ridiculous?  At another agency I was not accepted because I had the audacity to tell the agency that I had life goals  and write creatively on the side and was looking for something part-time or temporary.  They were not happy with this because the employers want to know that you will dedicate yourself to the job wholly, meaning you are not allowed to have a brain of your own.

So I continue to live my life in the void and try to enjoy being broke and living simply.  I will surrender myself to the experience once again and will try to stay in the now and look forward to the new beginnings that will hopefully begin for myself and many of us in 2010.

Valentine St Aubyn

My ascension nightmare and how I got to where I am now Part II

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Depiction of the pineal gland as a pine cone. Note the snakes rising around the spinal cord moving up towards the pineal gland in the brain.

Well, the new energies have certainly been hitting me in big ways.  November so far has been quite a transitional month  and not an easy one for me and with it I have been battling with a new round of ascension symptoms.  However, today I am feeling better and I would like to continue with the second part of my post.  If you have not read ‘My ascension nightmare and how I got to where I am Part I’ you may want to drop in and read this first.  For those of you who have here is part II.

So, let us rewind for just a minute and I will take you back a few years before we move on to the summer of 2007.  In the last post I described to you my account and experience of a kundalini release.  It wasn’t pretty and it completely uprooted every area of my life.  As the planet is ascending the vibration of the planet is lifting due to the influx of energies being pumped into the universe.  Many of us whether we are into new age spirituality or not are feeling some very strange side effects.  Anxiety is the most common effect people are experiencing which brings on intense fear, we feel this because we are being forced to face ourselves and get to the root of our behaviourial patterns that do not serve our highest good.  When my anxiety was at its worst my hands and body constantly shook and I would often hide my hands out of sheer embarrassment.   It is becoming more common for people to experience spontaneous kundalini releases without even having to try, however, I do believe you will go through some physical preparations such as extreme anxiety and  insomnia as the body prepares itself.  Nevertheless, even if someone has had a kundalini release not everyone will experience what I have previously described.  When my husband experienced his kundalini release, he developed kundalini flu which brought on alot of pain in his crown chakra and he felt like he was on fire for about 24 hours and then he got better.  After that, it was over.  He developed the ringing in his ears soon after but did not got the loud siren effects like I did.

So why was my kundalini release so difficult?  This I do not know, and I am still trying to find the answers as there is so much to learn with all of this.  If you read Karen Bishop’s account of her awakening or Lisa Renee they too discuss a not so pleasant experience.   But, I do believe some of us will experience very strange symptoms as our kundalini releases and our pineal glands get activated.

I will say that I do not believe that my kundalini release was as spontaneous as I first believed. When I begin to look at the progression I went through I noticed a big change in myself towards the end of 1999 going into 2000. During this time I began experiencing extreme anxiety.  I was constantly anxious, I could not sleep, I had constant panic attacks and I became more and more nervous as the years went on.  From 2001-2003 I wrote Zoe Evans’ Possible Worlds the Crystal which acted as a great cathartic escape for me.   I  found myself channelling content for the book that I did not fully understand until my kundalini release and spiritual awakening years later.  By 2003, I realised that I needed help and so I went to see a hypnotherapist.  I did intense clearing work from 2003 until 2006 reliving all of the not so happy memories of my past and clearing them from my energy field.   I began to feel better but the panic attacks still lingered as did the insomnia.  My hypnotherapist suggested that I meditate on a regular basis which would help to calm my nerves.  So I did, I meditated for about 20 minutes three to four times a week from 2003 until 2007.  So when my kundalini released in the summer of 2007  I was catapulted into extreme anxiety once again and psychosis which I had never experienced before and I was completely shocked.  I had been doing so much work on myself, clearing and releasing so why was this happening to me?

chakraconesAs in the Matrix when Neo is faced with the choice of taking the blue or the red pill Kundalini release, ascension, spiritual awakening, however you would like to describe the process will without a doubt shatter your current perceptions about everything.  As my body cleared away all of the junk and debris of my past including any negative karmic patterns within my auric field, I was ready to be activated by the new energies that were being pumped into the solar system.  I had lifted my vibration to such a level that these new energies vibrated within my DNA which signalled it was time for activation.  The kundalini energy in my body and my pineal gland began to go to work.  The ancients have always known about the power of the pineal gland or third eye. So have the Vatican  and the masonic orders wich is a scary thought.  To gain higher levels of consciousness it is necessary for the pineal gland to be activated as it controls the the third eye.   The pineal gland is within the brain and effects what is perceived through the physical eyes and the senses.  It is the bridge and regulates awareness between the physical and spiritual worlds.  When the pineal gland is activated your perceptions and programming change. It is the gateway to higher knowledge and opening to the psychic realms.

When the pineal gland is activated a numbing sensation, or heaviness is felt in the base of the brain when you feel this know that great things are happening.  You will also feel the pouring of energy coming through the top of your head through the crown chakra as it activates the pineal gland, and you will get a buzzing or ringing in the ear as the energies swirl around.  Sometimes the sound can be loud and sometimes it is soft but it is best described as white noise.

So when my kundalini released my body became a christmas tree lit up with electrical currents running through all of  its channels.  I could no longer be the person I was it was time to change.  From August 2007 until January 2008 I went through an accelerated learning curve spiritually. I wanted to learn as much as I could and information came flying at me from every direction.  I was in constant pain as my crown chakra took in all of the new light and energy and I felt like an outsider from the 3-D world as my pineal gland had been activated and everything around me looked strange visually.  The ringing in my ears was loud but began to get quieter as the months went by.  I have always been into spirtual and metaphysical subjects, I have a degree in Philosophy, and I found a couple of books on my bookshelf on healing using crystals.  I could not remeber buying these books but nevertheless they were there.  I also found a book I had on healing using natural remedies such as flower remedies and decided to heal myself as my doctor was of no help whatsoever.    His answer to my health problems was to put me on anti-depressants which I flatly refused.   I also had a couple of sessions of acupuncture that helped me tremendously and the visual problems I had of everything looking flat and blurry eased with each session as my third eye began to reopen fully.  Everything around me looked different when I regained my vision it was if a new sense of vision was given to me.  I finally began to sleep better by November 2007 with the aid of prescription sleeping pills but I would only sleep for about 2 hours and then lay awake for another 2 hours this would go on all through the night every night for months.  My body was being downloaded with energy, information, light and I would lay in bed and feel my whole body literally shake and vibrate as the kundalini moved up, down and through my chakra system.  I was constantly hot and at night sweat would drop off of me and strangely I began to see number sequences such as 11:11, 9:11, 5:55, and on and on flashing on the clock.  In December 2007 I experienced the phantom death phase, I literally felt myself die.  I said good-bye to my husband expecting to physically die as I felt myself completely detaching from 3-d reality.  I did not die, but I certainly did not return to the old 3-D world I was born into.

I did not learn what had truly happened to me until January 2008 when I stumbled upon a channeling from Kryon and a spiritual forum that helped me greatly, and then I realised there was a whole community of people going through the same thing as me.  What a relief, I hadn’t been going crazy I was just experiencing a spiritual awakening.

In part III I will discuss the astrology of my kundalini release and spiritual awakening, as my whole life began to fall apart.

Valentine St Aubyn

My ascension nightmare and how I got to where I am now Part I

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Kundalini is a Sanskrit word meaning either “coiled up” or “coiling like a snake.” There are a number of other translations of the term usually emphasizing a more serpent nature to the word – e.g. ‘serpent power’

This is my first attempt to discuss the shocking changes my body
encountered beginning in August 2007.  At the time and for several months after I did not know what was happening to me and I did not begin to learn that I had experienced a kundalini release until early 2008.  If you search the web you will find a great amount of content relating to kundalini.  It is a term widely available within new age spiritual circles and is no longer the secret that it once was, that is in these circles.  The sad reality is that the experience of kundalini is a big part of human consciouness and the astrological timing of kundalini events are often triggered by generational aspects that we all go through ie. midlife crisis, menopause for women etc.  So, why do we not know more about it as our bodies naturally have a time clock to signal the kundalini release?  David Wilcock has given a very good lecture about this very subject and shows that the Vatican is  aware of the power of kundalini and has for centuries kept the mystical side of their interests secret yet parading it through symbolism in our faces.  As usual, there are many in the know that do not want us to know but with more of us now experiencing kundalini experiences at a younger age the cat is beginning to get out of the bag.

In times past it was said that kundalini awakening, that is the release of the kundalini energy, takes place when a soul is ready to be initiated.  A certain level of spiritual maturation needs to be in place to allow the energy to uncoil itself and begin its ascent through the body to begin the process of cleansing all of the chakra centres over and over.  Spiritual maturation  usually occurs in the mid forties to early fifties which takes place just when an individual is beginning to learn that there is more to life than what they have traditionally been taught.  But now as the human race begins its journey towards the new energies of the Aquarian Age spiritual maturation is happening at a faster and younger rate.  In addition, the energies that are being pumped into our solar system have been unconsciously releasing kundalini in many people whether they are ready for it or not hence producing what is commonly termed as ascension symptoms.

It has now been over two years since the kundalini energy uncoiled and released itself in my body and my life has been turned upside down and all around. A Kundalini release is often described as spiritual bliss and a journey of becoming one with the universe.  Unfortunately for me I did not feel any spiritual bliss just sheer terror because I didn’t know what had happened to me. 

My Kundalini Release

It was the 17th August 2007.  It began with me becoming short of breath and feeling extremely unbalanced and then within a second I felt like I was outside of reality looking in.  It felt like someone had turned me and everything around me inside out.  I was frightened and I didn’t know what to do.  At work I had been experiencing severe bullying by a manager I had worked for,  and at first I thought I had an anxiety attack due to all of the stress I was undergoing but I soon realised this was not an anxiety attack this was something else.  I was not in any state to go to work I could barely stand, and within 24 hours I had become a nervous wreck.  I couldn’t sleep at all not even for an hour.  I felt like someone had plugged me into an electrical outlet and left me to fry.  After the first couple of days of being in this state I finally got a sinking feeling that something was wrong and that I would never be the same again, little did I know just how true that was.  

After a few days I began to get a loud ringing in my head which was constant.  The sound was similar to a loud buzzing sound that had a high pitch to it.  It was very loud and unnerving.  My head also hurt and it was beyond any headache I had ever experienced I was just in extreme pain.  And just when I believed that things couldn’t get worst my vision  became extremely blurred.  I could barely see and visually everything looked flattened and I felt like I was trapped in a hellish nightmare.  I am one of those annoying people who are always cold.  I have always had naturally cold hands and feet so when I began feeling constantly hot and sweating I realised that I was not myself at all.  My insomina also kicked into high gear and I have suffered with it very badly throughout my adult life.  I stopped sleeping completely, I couldn’t sleep I was hot, my head felt like it was going to explode as it was being bombarded with prickly energy and I felt incredibly anxious.  I was also frightened because I was no longer in the space and time I knew.  Within a week I became a ghostly shell of myself.  I had to go on sick leave from work because I could not function.  By the end of the second week I knew I needed help badly but I didn’t know who or where I could go. 

In part II I will discuss how I managed to balance out my body and survive my kundalini release putting me on a new journey of self discovery.

Valentine St Aubyn

The Lightworkers strike back, life after transmuting darkness and living to tell the story

Star WarsMany of us have been fighting with the ‘dark forces’ for quite a few years now.  What has been so great about the 09.09.09 portal was that it marked a definitive ending in many of our lives.  Our roles of having to wield our lightsabers and put some of the darker and lower vibrating souls into check finally came to an abrupt end with the new energies of the Summer Solstice in June 2009. Well, it did for me and trust me I have had to endure some pretty heavy battles recently and I still have the wounds to show for it.  I would urge you to read a great article from Denise Le Fay, ‘My Lightworker Strike,’  as she so poignanty articulated the frustrations that many of us have been battling with and just how fed up we had become.    

2007-09 had been a particularly difficult period for me because as the new energies started to come in at a faster pace I no longer had the support to win my battles and I was often pushed out of my jobs feeling defeated, fatigued and deflated.  For family and friends around me they often saw my professional life as very chaotic, and they probably saw me as a victim.  It was often in work situations that I had to battle with the darker energies and I often felt like a Jedi knight working her magic to fight the evil powers, or at least those in control.  But the truth is I was being pushed out and no longer supported because it was time to leave the old world behind as I was no longer needed.  Those roles and jobs no longer mattered because something better would be on the horizon for me and now finally the darkness has begun to clear.  

I understand that many of us moving into the new world are on different timelines, so some of you may be dealing with what a few of us lightworkers have had to painfully endure for many years.  And if you are please know that you are always supported and that although the road looks dark there is light at the end of the tunnel.  Know that the time will come when you will be released from this role and move on to much safer ground while someone else takes your place.  And this is the process of the new earth having a steady plan to transmute the dark.  In different stages we help move this planet to the new energies of the Aquarius Age where we can finally get to business creating the new. 

It has often been noted that Lightworkers are commonly born into dysfunctional families which gives them low self-esteem.  This is particularly true for alot of the older Indigos including myself.  We have had to spend a great part of our lives learning how to be confident and finding a niche for ourselves in a very unfriendly world.  I have come across younger generation Indigos and I find that they are very confident and they know exactly what they want to do and do not like you telling them how to do it.  I find them to be extremely remarkable and intelligent and if this is the evolution of the human race then this planet is about to get shaken and stirred like it hasn’t been before.  Nevertheless, as we wait for the younger Indigo warriors to become of age and start moving into the mainstream many of us have had the task of keeping the wolves at bay which has been extremely tiring and difficult for us older sensitive souls.  Transmuting the dark takes place on many levels and many of us have and still are experiencing illness as we fight to balance energies within and without.  So thank goodness for the new energies of 09.09.09.  The energies arrived closing a heavy door in my life and I am enjoying the peace and tranquility that is now around me.  Oh yes I still suffer with tiredness, numbing headaches and more but I no longer have to sit in negative energies with negative people, what a relief.  There is still alot more work to do and I still have to find my feet in this new world.  There is the frustration of not being able to manifest everything I need in my life and of course this has its own problems but now that I am no longer having to battle the dark of the old world life  is so much more enjoyable.  So for anyone who feels like giving up or thinks that no one else understands what you are experiencing please know that you are not alone on this journey.

Valentine St Aubyn