Many of us have been fighting with the ‘dark forces’ for quite a few years now. What has been so great about the 09.09.09 portal was that it marked a definitive ending in many of our lives. Our roles of having to wield our lightsabers and put some of the darker and lower vibrating souls into check finally came to an abrupt end with the new energies of the Summer Solstice in June 2009. Well, it did for me and trust me I have had to endure some pretty heavy battles recently and I still have the wounds to show for it. I would urge you to read a great article from Denise Le Fay, ‘My Lightworker Strike,’ as she so poignanty articulated the frustrations that many of us have been battling with and just how fed up we had become.
2007-09 had been a particularly difficult period for me because as the new energies started to come in at a faster pace I no longer had the support to win my battles and I was often pushed out of my jobs feeling defeated, fatigued and deflated. For family and friends around me they often saw my professional life as very chaotic, and they probably saw me as a victim. It was often in work situations that I had to battle with the darker energies and I often felt like a Jedi knight working her magic to fight the evil powers, or at least those in control. But the truth is I was being pushed out and no longer supported because it was time to leave the old world behind as I was no longer needed. Those roles and jobs no longer mattered because something better would be on the horizon for me and now finally the darkness has begun to clear.
I understand that many of us moving into the new world are on different timelines, so some of you may be dealing with what a few of us lightworkers have had to painfully endure for many years. And if you are please know that you are always supported and that although the road looks dark there is light at the end of the tunnel. Know that the time will come when you will be released from this role and move on to much safer ground while someone else takes your place. And this is the process of the new earth having a steady plan to transmute the dark. In different stages we help move this planet to the new energies of the Aquarius Age where we can finally get to business creating the new.
It has often been noted that Lightworkers are commonly born into dysfunctional families which gives them low self-esteem. This is particularly true for alot of the older Indigos including myself. We have had to spend a great part of our lives learning how to be confident and finding a niche for ourselves in a very unfriendly world. I have come across younger generation Indigos and I find that they are very confident and they know exactly what they want to do and do not like you telling them how to do it. I find them to be extremely remarkable and intelligent and if this is the evolution of the human race then this planet is about to get shaken and stirred like it hasn’t been before. Nevertheless, as we wait for the younger Indigo warriors to become of age and start moving into the mainstream many of us have had the task of keeping the wolves at bay which has been extremely tiring and difficult for us older sensitive souls. Transmuting the dark takes place on many levels and many of us have and still are experiencing illness as we fight to balance energies within and without. So thank goodness for the new energies of 09.09.09. The energies arrived closing a heavy door in my life and I am enjoying the peace and tranquility that is now around me. Oh yes I still suffer with tiredness, numbing headaches and more but I no longer have to sit in negative energies with negative people, what a relief. There is still alot more work to do and I still have to find my feet in this new world. There is the frustration of not being able to manifest everything I need in my life and of course this has its own problems but now that I am no longer having to battle the dark of the old world life is so much more enjoyable. So for anyone who feels like giving up or thinks that no one else understands what you are experiencing please know that you are not alone on this journey.
Valentine St Aubyn
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