Back to life and out of the void

I love the synchronicity of things it’s like the sprinkling of fairy dust! After I wrote my last post ‘Life in the void, being broke, and loving every minute of it?’ I visited Karen Bishop’s website, who is one of my favourite energy readers, and I was so pleased to see her post from the 18th November 09,   The Opening of 11:11 and the New Energy Surge , literally within minutes of reading her post my phone began to ring and I was invited for an interview for a part-time post I had applied for.  The office I had been working at on a temporary basis also got in touch later that day needing me to come in once again to help out in the coming weeks.  Since the 19th of November I have been out of the void and existing on the fringes of 3-d reality.  I say this because as the 09.09.09 portal separated the old 3-d world from the new world I have noticed that my contact with others has been very limited.  Even the new part-time job I have is working during the nights, keeping me safe from the harsher energies as my body has now become extremely sensitive to the lower denser energies.

In my last post ‘Life in the void, being broke, and loving every minute of it?’, I described the process of what life was like when going through periods of what is termed ‘in the void’.  During the process of ascension or spiritual awakening, these quiet moments are extremely important.  As the body is lifting its vibration, purging and releasing the most one can do  is get lots of rest, cry if you need to, drink plenty of water and get out of the way of our higher selves, so that we can create the necessary connections for our next phase.  These void periods come in cycles and there is no exact time frame for how long they last.  I have had void periods that last only for a couple of months to almost a year.  It really depends on how much processing and releasing your body needs and how you react to the process. 

From the many responses I have had privately and here on the blog many of you are also experiencing this, which is very normal and common for those of us now choosing to awake.  So, some of you may just be entering void periods and others may be coming out and reemerging once again.  There is no right or wrong and we are all moving along on different timelines to get to the same point, it is all part of the process.  So enjoy these times and think about what you truly want in your life and what you no longer will tolerate.

Now, more than anytime our lives are being dismantled and restructured as we hurdle towards 2012 and beyond.  2012 is not about the end of the world,  this is an old timeline that has been eradicated with the energy of the harmonic convergence. It will however be very much a marker of new beginnings for our new ways of life and what we belive is ‘real’.  For me I forsee 2012 and the next two years 2010 and 2011 ushering in the dismantling of our mind control programmes for those that want to awake.  When you move beyond the manipulation and mind control programmes of the 3d world you really understand just what is going on in our world, and it ain’t pretty… at all.  I am not convinced that everyone will wake up or that we will all hold hands and sing songs of love.  There will still be alot of problems to overcome, but I do believe it will become harder for our governments to decieve us, and for us to decieve ourselves, at least for a small percentage of us.

So while you experience your void periods try to relax and know that you are being guided.  When it’s over, you will soon be busy and will want another rest soon.

Valentine St Aubyn

Life in the void, being broke, and loving every minute of it?

Without a doubt 2009 has been a very difficult year for me as it has been for many others going through deep and profound changes.  For me it’s been a long cycle which started in full in 2007 and has lingered ever since.  I have been reshaped, reformed, cleansed, purified, turned upside down and inside out, removed, detached, abused and loved and have experienced every emotion that is possible to describe with human words.  I have cried and laughed and felt completely no emotion at all wondering what in blazing saddles is going on in my life.  Unfortunately, I wasn’t born with being able to see through dimensions or have conversations with star beings which I would have loved to of had but I was born quite sensitive and have the ability to feel energy at a deep level.  I’m glad there are others out there such as Karen Bishop, Lisa Renee, Steve Rother who have this talent and can articulate what is happening to us as it is such a transformative journey and we all need help and guidance along the way. 

Over the last few years, as I have been on my ascension journey, I have gone through a few cycles where I have been completely withdrawn from the world around me.  I can’t say I mind, I do not care much for mainstream life and would very much like to go and live on a much more sophisticated and loving planet.  However, for now I am here and so I and many of us who are sensitive to the denser energies are trying to make the most of it.

Over the last few years I have noticed a distinct and reoccurring pattern that exists.  I enter into moments of complete detachness where absolutely nothing happens in my life for months and months and at the moment I am in another one of those phases.  For me it began in September with the 09.09.09 portal.  The phone stopped ringing,  the temporary job I had folded and everything around me halted, except for the creative work I am doing for my novel that will be published early next year.  This phase is often described as the ‘void’  and is a big part of ascension and many of us have and are currently experiencing this.  I will leave the more technical aspects of the cleansing and purging that comes with this to the experts but the void is a necessary phase that happens in cycles as our bodies assimilate the new energies that are being pumped into the planet.  During these periods I am always out of work whether I like it or not, can only focus and concentrate for short periods of time, am completely removed from others, and spend alot of time in my own home and pretty much feel like doing very little.  In 3-D reality we are taught we must have a job,  we should always be doing something and working ourselves to death to show just how successful we are.  So, when you jump out of 3-D reality and move into the higher realms we soon realise there are many levels where work can occur that do not adhere to the rules of 3-D perception.  And although we may have alot of work to get on with such as creative projects or planning our new businesses we just can’t muster enough energy to sit and do it all day as we could in the past.

I find life in the void scary and comforting all at the same time.  I am always working through alot within myself during these periods and spend alot of time crying and releasing as I often feel very alone and detached from everyone and everything around me.  My crown chakra tends to hurt alot and the laying down position is my favourite as it makes me feel at ease.  I always manage to get sick.  And this cycle is no different I have had the flu, vomitted, been having stomach aches, and have felt absolutely exhausted even though I have been getting plenty of rest and have been able to relax all day long.  However, unfortunately I have a mortgage and bills to pay so although we are being asked by the higher levels to use this time and transmute and process I find it very hard to fully relax. 

I have to admit somehow my financial needs are strangely being met.  They do not all get met,  if I may add, but I still have a roof over my head and I have been through a few phases of the void in the past and have come out at the other end still standing and with a home.  I eat regularly so much so that I’ve managed to put on weight and I am not someone who puts on weight easily.  As everything in my life has been stripped away I do not have many material things left, I have no car to maintain and no credit cards to worry about everything has been shaved down to the bare mininum.  This also includes personal relationships including my marriage which has experienced many ups and downs over the last few years and at the moment my husband and I have been separated from each other.

I am broke, and forced to accept help from others, something that does not sit well with me as I have always worked for everything I have.  Even when I try to help myself and look for work I am rudely reminded that I no longer belong in the old world.  This week I recently tried to join an agency to look for employment.  Although my novel will be available to buy at the beginning of next year and I am trying to become self employed delivering historical workshops, I still need outside help financially.  I was rudely turned away as I was not able to pass a credit check to get a particular job, have you ever heard anything so ridiculous?  At another agency I was not accepted because I had the audacity to tell the agency that I had life goals  and write creatively on the side and was looking for something part-time or temporary.  They were not happy with this because the employers want to know that you will dedicate yourself to the job wholly, meaning you are not allowed to have a brain of your own.

So I continue to live my life in the void and try to enjoy being broke and living simply.  I will surrender myself to the experience once again and will try to stay in the now and look forward to the new beginnings that will hopefully begin for myself and many of us in 2010.

Valentine St Aubyn