Releasing the old 3D world and accelerating into 5D consciousness is hard work

There is no doubt that we are living in precarious times.  I often ask people that I know if they actually believe we are still living in the same world we were born into.  I often get a strange look but it’s not an odd question it just depends on the consciousness ladder you are residing on.  I have come to the conclusion that experiencing ascension is a strange ride.  When I listen to others who describe their kundalini awakening as a blissful moment full of love I have no idea what they are talking about.  My kundalini awakening was painful and brought on psychosis and soon after my life collasped and is still collasping as we speak.  I have previously written about my own experience of kundalini awakening in older posts so if you are experiencing this right now please look through the archives. 

 This phenomena which is being labelled ascension is meant to release you from the old level of consciousness you were born into and transform you into the true powerful being you truly are.  This in itself is fantastic I can’t tell you how much more clued in I am now since my kundalini kicked off which is a great gift.  I have also become more focused and eager to live my true purpose.  A few years ago I would not have had the confidence to be writing this blog.  But in the same breath I have become marginalised from friends and family and I often find myself alone as very few can relate to me as I have shifted and raised my vibration so much that I no longer resonate with the majority of those around me.  This is one of the biggest indicators that suggest you are leaving the old 3D world behind.  Everything that was created there has to be pruned, released and reborn.  This is not an easy journey there is alot of loss that is involved.  There is plenty of information about the shift of consciousness coming to this planet and when we look at what is happening in our world the collaspe is very evident.  It is a moderately slow collaspe not everything is disappearing all at the same time but the intensity is certainly gathering momentum.  And just as in the macro in the micro we are experiencing these shifts and changes in our own lives too.  Part of the old framework is still there but the background is shifting and changing. 

Although I am more than happy to leave the old 3D world behind I do wonder if the 5D ‘new’ earth will be a better place.  At the moment very few of us are there on a regular basis.  We are sort of in limbo probably popping in and out as we still have to have regular contact with the old ways.  Also, there is so much division and deception within the new age community that I’m of the belief that there is still a long road to travel down.  I can’t tell you just how much junk is out there at the moment and I as many others have fallen prey to it from time to time.  There are so many self proclaimed gurus telling us how we should feel and what is what, and to me this is disappointing.  I have always loved the metaphysical world from an early age but just as everything else is collasping to be reborn I would say that this area is not immune.  It too needs to be cleared out so that the new and genuine can be born in its place.

So, I imagine at least for the time being that the new 5D earth will still have some hurdles to overcome as we slowly make the shif towards this new consciousness.  For each of us that which is no longer working for us is currently being taken away whether we like it or not inorder for us to move forward.  Relationships are breaking down, friendships ending and money, well, that’s a whole other subject but let’s be honest it’s pretty non-existent for those of us currently making this shift.  How many of us have even managed to keep a roof over our heads in the last few years is a miracle to say the least.  It’s been a very difficult time for many.

Yes making this shift of consciousness is hardwork.  It is tiring physically and mentally.  The aches, the pains, the tears,  the disappointments.  Cleaning out the soul in order to shift vibrationally is not just about feeling at peace with oneself there are also some distressing moments that need to be embraced, understood and resolved.  And this is part of the true journey. We must learn to assimilate the light and dark within us.  Some days the dark wins and other days the light.  We are humans and these qualities exist within us equally.  So, don’t feel bad if you are not shifting to 5D consciousness peacefully.  Some days I go kicking and screaming, other days with pain in my heart.  This is hard work and there are many out there who do not understand what we are going through.  They are not into this and probably never will be.  It still doesn’t stop the fact that this is happening and they too are shifting even if  they do not realise it, so keep your head up and feel with your heart.  That which does not resonate with you does not have to become part of your belief system or be embraced by you. 

Valentine.

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Our Solar System is heating up and we are evolving

Look very closely at this image

 

Milky Way galaxy

It’s very interesting that the talks in Copenhagen ended with a stalemate.  You have to be very careful with the press as it is their role to decieve, mislead and confuse us.  However, if you sift through all of the bullshit  that’s flying around it’s been interesting to watch how the press have been trying to blame everything on the Chinese, which is not the point.  The point is all of the big players including Europe, America and China do not want to make the necessary changes to tackle the climate problem, this cannot be blamed on one country.

So, where does this leave us?  It is hard to believe that the human race is on the brink of evolution. Looking at the recent attitudes of the world leaders this does not convince me that we are ready for the new Aquarian age, but alas supposedly we are.  However, I could be looking at things from the wrong angle or should I say dimension. I’ll get back to this shortly.

The word ascension is becoming quite the buzz word, but for those not in the loop many wonder what all of this is about.  The word is not a new one it has been bouncing around in religious circles for eons.  It often offers visions of somone like Christ floating on a cloud and rising to the heavens.  This type of ascension is no longer valid, although I wonder if it ever was.  The ascension that is being whispered about now is somewhat different and  involves the evolution of our DNA and the shifting of our consciousness as we remain in our bodies. Our climate is a big player as it is triggering us internally and most of us don’t even know it.

I’ll be frank, which is what I do best.  We are not being told the truth about the climatic changes taking place on our planet, however, the scientific community and those who run the show, are in the know.  I’ll give you an example. If you look at the front cover of  Al Gore’s documentary, ‘An inconvenient Truth’ you will see what appears to be smoke coming out of a chimney.  Look closely because that is not smoke it is our galaxy in disguise.  Some could argue that it might represent a cyclone storm, but I agree with David Wilcock it is definitely our galaxy.  So why is it being represented on the  front cover of Al Gore’s documentary, ‘An Inconvenient Truth?’  What is it that they know that they are not telling us?

Advertising poster for the last series of Dr Who for 2009

The powers that be communicate with us through symbolism, one of the experts at reading these signs has been Jordan Maxwell.  If you have not heard of him you definitely need to look into his work.  I’ll give you what seems to be an ‘innocent’ example of symbolism that I have discovered recently.  In England, the BBC have been working very hard to reinvent the long running Dr Who show –  I’ve watched a couple of episodes it seems to be entertaining.  The finale episode for 2009 with David Tennant  is called ‘The End of Time.’  A message is being tramsmitted here but you have to have your eyes and brain switched on to get the message.  All you have to do is look around and you can see all of the doom and gloom theories being thrown around.  Collective Consciousness is very vulnerable if you can keep the masses in fear then you can easily playout doom and gloom scenarios.  There is actually an even deeper meaning that I am also able to read.  The powers that be are letting you know that time in 3D reality is coming to an end and that a new consciousness is on the way.  Part of the predictions for the years around 2012 made by the Mayans and other North American cultures discuss the ‘end of time’ and in its place a new age is coming, in metaphysical circles this new era of time has been named the Age of Aquarius. 

What you will not be told by the news or any paid and bought for media outlets is that humanity is experiencing a shift in consciousness and scientifically this coincides with our DNA.  The warming of the solar system is having an impact on us directly.  Have you been experiencing severe anxiety, extreme insomnia, aches and pains,  is your life falling apart?  These are some of the symptoms and yes all of this is tied to 2012.  Leave the doom and gloom aside and understand that 2010 leading up to 2012 and beyond will be watershed years that will shake humanity and change the way we think.  There is nothing to fear except for change.  The human race will still be here beyond 2012 but you maybe become alot more enlightened along the way.

In a previous article, ‘It’s not just the planet heating up it’s the whole solar system’, I gave links to the scientific evidence that supports the fact that not only is our planet warming but so is our entire solar system.  This does not counter the argument that carbon emissions are not responsible for the rise in temperatures, but they are not the sole reason.  It is vitally important that carbon emissions be reduced as we are poisioning our planet and Mother Earth is not happy with this. I’m sure we will see the dire consequence of this later in the centuryas our leaders will fail to do anything about this until the very last minute.

Dimensionally, our solar system is lifting its vibration and it is ascending,  many of us have currently jumped ship and are existing dimensionally on the new earth in 5-D reality, while others remain on the old earth in 3-D. Lifting your vibration, the activation of your DNA and changing your perception of reality is currently what all of us are living with even if we do not know anything about ascension. These changes are going on within all of us whether we are aware or not.  The new earth with the new energy is here so expect to see some big changes in the next couple of years.  It is up to us to empower oursleves and read the scientific evidence for ourselves.  Do not just take my word for it research it yourself.  Do not just follow the news and assume they are telling you the truth, own your power.  Look at NASA’s website, research why the magnetic field has shifted incredibly in a short span of time.  Learn about the new children being born, the Indigos and Crystals.  You might have one yourself.  Open your mind and question what you see there is more to reality than what you have been told.

Valentine St Aubyn

Back to life and out of the void

I love the synchronicity of things it’s like the sprinkling of fairy dust! After I wrote my last post ‘Life in the void, being broke, and loving every minute of it?’ I visited Karen Bishop’s website, who is one of my favourite energy readers, and I was so pleased to see her post from the 18th November 09,   The Opening of 11:11 and the New Energy Surge , literally within minutes of reading her post my phone began to ring and I was invited for an interview for a part-time post I had applied for.  The office I had been working at on a temporary basis also got in touch later that day needing me to come in once again to help out in the coming weeks.  Since the 19th of November I have been out of the void and existing on the fringes of 3-d reality.  I say this because as the 09.09.09 portal separated the old 3-d world from the new world I have noticed that my contact with others has been very limited.  Even the new part-time job I have is working during the nights, keeping me safe from the harsher energies as my body has now become extremely sensitive to the lower denser energies.

In my last post ‘Life in the void, being broke, and loving every minute of it?’, I described the process of what life was like when going through periods of what is termed ‘in the void’.  During the process of ascension or spiritual awakening, these quiet moments are extremely important.  As the body is lifting its vibration, purging and releasing the most one can do  is get lots of rest, cry if you need to, drink plenty of water and get out of the way of our higher selves, so that we can create the necessary connections for our next phase.  These void periods come in cycles and there is no exact time frame for how long they last.  I have had void periods that last only for a couple of months to almost a year.  It really depends on how much processing and releasing your body needs and how you react to the process. 

From the many responses I have had privately and here on the blog many of you are also experiencing this, which is very normal and common for those of us now choosing to awake.  So, some of you may just be entering void periods and others may be coming out and reemerging once again.  There is no right or wrong and we are all moving along on different timelines to get to the same point, it is all part of the process.  So enjoy these times and think about what you truly want in your life and what you no longer will tolerate.

Now, more than anytime our lives are being dismantled and restructured as we hurdle towards 2012 and beyond.  2012 is not about the end of the world,  this is an old timeline that has been eradicated with the energy of the harmonic convergence. It will however be very much a marker of new beginnings for our new ways of life and what we belive is ‘real’.  For me I forsee 2012 and the next two years 2010 and 2011 ushering in the dismantling of our mind control programmes for those that want to awake.  When you move beyond the manipulation and mind control programmes of the 3d world you really understand just what is going on in our world, and it ain’t pretty… at all.  I am not convinced that everyone will wake up or that we will all hold hands and sing songs of love.  There will still be alot of problems to overcome, but I do believe it will become harder for our governments to decieve us, and for us to decieve ourselves, at least for a small percentage of us.

So while you experience your void periods try to relax and know that you are being guided.  When it’s over, you will soon be busy and will want another rest soon.

Valentine St Aubyn

Life in the void, being broke, and loving every minute of it?

Without a doubt 2009 has been a very difficult year for me as it has been for many others going through deep and profound changes.  For me it’s been a long cycle which started in full in 2007 and has lingered ever since.  I have been reshaped, reformed, cleansed, purified, turned upside down and inside out, removed, detached, abused and loved and have experienced every emotion that is possible to describe with human words.  I have cried and laughed and felt completely no emotion at all wondering what in blazing saddles is going on in my life.  Unfortunately, I wasn’t born with being able to see through dimensions or have conversations with star beings which I would have loved to of had but I was born quite sensitive and have the ability to feel energy at a deep level.  I’m glad there are others out there such as Karen Bishop, Lisa Renee, Steve Rother who have this talent and can articulate what is happening to us as it is such a transformative journey and we all need help and guidance along the way. 

Over the last few years, as I have been on my ascension journey, I have gone through a few cycles where I have been completely withdrawn from the world around me.  I can’t say I mind, I do not care much for mainstream life and would very much like to go and live on a much more sophisticated and loving planet.  However, for now I am here and so I and many of us who are sensitive to the denser energies are trying to make the most of it.

Over the last few years I have noticed a distinct and reoccurring pattern that exists.  I enter into moments of complete detachness where absolutely nothing happens in my life for months and months and at the moment I am in another one of those phases.  For me it began in September with the 09.09.09 portal.  The phone stopped ringing,  the temporary job I had folded and everything around me halted, except for the creative work I am doing for my novel that will be published early next year.  This phase is often described as the ‘void’  and is a big part of ascension and many of us have and are currently experiencing this.  I will leave the more technical aspects of the cleansing and purging that comes with this to the experts but the void is a necessary phase that happens in cycles as our bodies assimilate the new energies that are being pumped into the planet.  During these periods I am always out of work whether I like it or not, can only focus and concentrate for short periods of time, am completely removed from others, and spend alot of time in my own home and pretty much feel like doing very little.  In 3-D reality we are taught we must have a job,  we should always be doing something and working ourselves to death to show just how successful we are.  So, when you jump out of 3-D reality and move into the higher realms we soon realise there are many levels where work can occur that do not adhere to the rules of 3-D perception.  And although we may have alot of work to get on with such as creative projects or planning our new businesses we just can’t muster enough energy to sit and do it all day as we could in the past.

I find life in the void scary and comforting all at the same time.  I am always working through alot within myself during these periods and spend alot of time crying and releasing as I often feel very alone and detached from everyone and everything around me.  My crown chakra tends to hurt alot and the laying down position is my favourite as it makes me feel at ease.  I always manage to get sick.  And this cycle is no different I have had the flu, vomitted, been having stomach aches, and have felt absolutely exhausted even though I have been getting plenty of rest and have been able to relax all day long.  However, unfortunately I have a mortgage and bills to pay so although we are being asked by the higher levels to use this time and transmute and process I find it very hard to fully relax. 

I have to admit somehow my financial needs are strangely being met.  They do not all get met,  if I may add, but I still have a roof over my head and I have been through a few phases of the void in the past and have come out at the other end still standing and with a home.  I eat regularly so much so that I’ve managed to put on weight and I am not someone who puts on weight easily.  As everything in my life has been stripped away I do not have many material things left, I have no car to maintain and no credit cards to worry about everything has been shaved down to the bare mininum.  This also includes personal relationships including my marriage which has experienced many ups and downs over the last few years and at the moment my husband and I have been separated from each other.

I am broke, and forced to accept help from others, something that does not sit well with me as I have always worked for everything I have.  Even when I try to help myself and look for work I am rudely reminded that I no longer belong in the old world.  This week I recently tried to join an agency to look for employment.  Although my novel will be available to buy at the beginning of next year and I am trying to become self employed delivering historical workshops, I still need outside help financially.  I was rudely turned away as I was not able to pass a credit check to get a particular job, have you ever heard anything so ridiculous?  At another agency I was not accepted because I had the audacity to tell the agency that I had life goals  and write creatively on the side and was looking for something part-time or temporary.  They were not happy with this because the employers want to know that you will dedicate yourself to the job wholly, meaning you are not allowed to have a brain of your own.

So I continue to live my life in the void and try to enjoy being broke and living simply.  I will surrender myself to the experience once again and will try to stay in the now and look forward to the new beginnings that will hopefully begin for myself and many of us in 2010.

Valentine St Aubyn

My ascension nightmare and how I got to where I am now Part I

kundalini
Kundalini is a Sanskrit word meaning either “coiled up” or “coiling like a snake.” There are a number of other translations of the term usually emphasizing a more serpent nature to the word – e.g. ‘serpent power’

This is my first attempt to discuss the shocking changes my body
encountered beginning in August 2007.  At the time and for several months after I did not know what was happening to me and I did not begin to learn that I had experienced a kundalini release until early 2008.  If you search the web you will find a great amount of content relating to kundalini.  It is a term widely available within new age spiritual circles and is no longer the secret that it once was, that is in these circles.  The sad reality is that the experience of kundalini is a big part of human consciouness and the astrological timing of kundalini events are often triggered by generational aspects that we all go through ie. midlife crisis, menopause for women etc.  So, why do we not know more about it as our bodies naturally have a time clock to signal the kundalini release?  David Wilcock has given a very good lecture about this very subject and shows that the Vatican is  aware of the power of kundalini and has for centuries kept the mystical side of their interests secret yet parading it through symbolism in our faces.  As usual, there are many in the know that do not want us to know but with more of us now experiencing kundalini experiences at a younger age the cat is beginning to get out of the bag.

In times past it was said that kundalini awakening, that is the release of the kundalini energy, takes place when a soul is ready to be initiated.  A certain level of spiritual maturation needs to be in place to allow the energy to uncoil itself and begin its ascent through the body to begin the process of cleansing all of the chakra centres over and over.  Spiritual maturation  usually occurs in the mid forties to early fifties which takes place just when an individual is beginning to learn that there is more to life than what they have traditionally been taught.  But now as the human race begins its journey towards the new energies of the Aquarian Age spiritual maturation is happening at a faster and younger rate.  In addition, the energies that are being pumped into our solar system have been unconsciously releasing kundalini in many people whether they are ready for it or not hence producing what is commonly termed as ascension symptoms.

It has now been over two years since the kundalini energy uncoiled and released itself in my body and my life has been turned upside down and all around. A Kundalini release is often described as spiritual bliss and a journey of becoming one with the universe.  Unfortunately for me I did not feel any spiritual bliss just sheer terror because I didn’t know what had happened to me. 

My Kundalini Release

It was the 17th August 2007.  It began with me becoming short of breath and feeling extremely unbalanced and then within a second I felt like I was outside of reality looking in.  It felt like someone had turned me and everything around me inside out.  I was frightened and I didn’t know what to do.  At work I had been experiencing severe bullying by a manager I had worked for,  and at first I thought I had an anxiety attack due to all of the stress I was undergoing but I soon realised this was not an anxiety attack this was something else.  I was not in any state to go to work I could barely stand, and within 24 hours I had become a nervous wreck.  I couldn’t sleep at all not even for an hour.  I felt like someone had plugged me into an electrical outlet and left me to fry.  After the first couple of days of being in this state I finally got a sinking feeling that something was wrong and that I would never be the same again, little did I know just how true that was.  

After a few days I began to get a loud ringing in my head which was constant.  The sound was similar to a loud buzzing sound that had a high pitch to it.  It was very loud and unnerving.  My head also hurt and it was beyond any headache I had ever experienced I was just in extreme pain.  And just when I believed that things couldn’t get worst my vision  became extremely blurred.  I could barely see and visually everything looked flattened and I felt like I was trapped in a hellish nightmare.  I am one of those annoying people who are always cold.  I have always had naturally cold hands and feet so when I began feeling constantly hot and sweating I realised that I was not myself at all.  My insomina also kicked into high gear and I have suffered with it very badly throughout my adult life.  I stopped sleeping completely, I couldn’t sleep I was hot, my head felt like it was going to explode as it was being bombarded with prickly energy and I felt incredibly anxious.  I was also frightened because I was no longer in the space and time I knew.  Within a week I became a ghostly shell of myself.  I had to go on sick leave from work because I could not function.  By the end of the second week I knew I needed help badly but I didn’t know who or where I could go. 

In part II I will discuss how I managed to balance out my body and survive my kundalini release putting me on a new journey of self discovery.

Valentine St Aubyn