Have you been in the void lately? A message from Karen Bishop

It’s funny how synchronicity works I was just thinking the other day how I need to write a post about the strange void I have been in this summer.  I have had a couple of new projects launch for myself, like the publication of my novel Zoe Evans’ Possible Worlds the Crystal, but yet find things not moving in the manner I had expected.  Alot of shifting, starting, and stopping.   I’m sure I have not beeen the only one to experience this as many of us often experience the same things at the same time. 

I have written about being in the void in previous posts.  Void periods are just as the word suggests, no movement can occur.  This time round for myself, this void has been very strange because things have slightly moved forward and I’m not completely shut away from others. I have not been kept isolated as I grow, shift and purge as in times past.  But trying to find any stability with anything has been very difficult and a holding pattern has been prevalent.

We have been through a series of very high energy aspects astrologically.  The summer time is always energetically high generally with the summer solsice in June.  But this summer we had a very emotional eclipse in Cancer and Capricorn to stir things up.  The high potent cardinal climax in August set alot of things on fire for many of us who have planets in the early cardinal degrees.  And to top it off the solar flare emissions have begun again after being dormant for quite some time.  Many of us have been assimilating these energies and I do not feel that these energies have settled in any way.  Creating this strange void effect for many of us.  I expect November and December to be action packed months for the world and most likely the time many of us will begin to move forward.

Out of the blue a couple of days ago I recieved a message from Karen Bishop, who has appeared from her self imposed exile.  If you signed up to get the latest news from her before her departure back in the Spring then you will have recieved this message as well.  She is no longer writing the wings posts that many of us have followed over the years and I had wondered if we would ever hear from her again.  There was a bit of a backlash against Karen Bishop right before she left but I have always found her writings to be very relevant.  No one person has all the answers and this is what we must remember.  We are our own best guidance! Yet, I have found her words to explain very much what I have been experiencing.  So, enjoy thee message from Karen I have provided below.  And I’ll be back soon with another post.

(I have just been watching the opening ceremony of the Commonwealth Games that is taking place in Delhi, India as I sit here and write.  They have just completed a performance devoted to yoga and at the end of it the outline of a giant buddha appears with the chakras moving upwards.  This is absolutely fantastic to see on national television.  Every once in awhile I see glimpses of the shifting consciousness that is afoot.   The negative press given to India about the conditions of the athletes’ village was just a way to keep the consciousness level down.  The opening ceremony had a great energy to it because India is a phenomenal country with a long spiritual past. )

The yoga section of the performance is below in case you would like to see it:

Until next time, Valentine.


September 30, 2010


It is with great pleasure and immense joy that I am blessed to
bring this new message to you. Although I am no longer writing
WINGS messages, within this e-mail is the latest abbreviated
information regarding our human and planetary evolution, from the
last WINGS post up until now. We have reached a very new horizon at
last, and can finally move forward…this latest journey was so
unusual that it is a story I felt was well worth reporting, and I
was also blessed to be asked. Below you will find this latest
planetary update along with information about two new books that
are in the making. Like many of you, I am still in transition
regarding any new endeavors, but for now, I have been guided to
begin my transition in the form of these new books (a total
surprise, not my idea, and books will be but a minor portion of my
new endeavor). For various reasons (relating to our evolutionary
process) these books will only be available in paperback format. No
electronic versions will be offered or produced, and these books
will be distributed through my own company only and not available
on the internet or in stores. All prior Emerging Earth Angels and
What’s Up On Planet Earth? books are no longer available at this
time. To avoid any confusion please know that:  This planetary
update is contained within this email and not on the Emerging Earth
Angels website because:  1) I no longer offer this service and, 2)
in recent months, I moved my website from my old dedicated server
to a new and much smaller server, and because of this, my website
is unable to handle large amounts of traffic (part of my phasing
out of the old). Once again, kindly know that I will not be
resuming the WINGS posts via a new e-mail format, nor posted on a
website, as this part of my old role is now over.

The first book (no title yet) is a manual about the ascension
process and will be a condensed compilation of all eight of the
Emerging Earth Angels and What’s Up  On Planet Earth? books. This
book will be updated, revised, and compact. All one needs to know
about symptoms, scenarios, soul roles, “the plan,” how each of us
fits in, why things happen and unfold the way they do, and
basically, what one can expect from the ascension process and how
it all works will be contained in this compact, condensed, and
revised book. Have you experienced the latest vertigo? Sustained a
multitude of losses? Had hot flashes or felt unusually hot? Been
unable to connect to your “source” or lost your heightened
abilities? Have you felt completely invisible with a need to scream
to get anyone’s attention? These are common ascension occurrences
that will be addressed and explained along with much more within
this new book. If ever you feel confused and unsure of what is
occurring for you and why, chances are you can find it within this
book. This is a suitable book for those in the healing or helping
professions who may have clients going through this process for the
first time. It is also suitable as a reminder for many of us as
well, and the new revisions should put everything in a new and
different perspective.

The second book (still untitled as well) will be comprised of
information specifically related to experiencing a complete death.
The end. What it feels like, what the stages are, what to expect,
how to navigate while in the total emptiness, why it is happening,
why all is in divine order, why you will emerge in a new and very
different space, how to connect to the new you and your new
contribution, and more. I had such a challenging and different
experience this time around that I felt a guidebook was worth
putting out there. And in the new and higher vibrations we are now
experiencing, things are now a bit different as well.

If you would like to be notified when these books and any other
offerings are ready, if you have not already done so, I welcome you
in signing up to the e-list on the Emerging Earth Angels website
(www.emergingearthangels.com).  Please know that the site will
appear to be “down” if experiencing a large amount of traffic, so
you may want to try again at a later time. Your physical mailing
address will also be requested (along with your e-mail address), as
your e-mail address MAY only be viable while the old grid (the
internet) is still in place. A new grid is finally forming…more
about that in the planetary update below.

And now, onto the latest news about our spiritual evolutionary

What a challenging and confusing ride it has been for these past
several months! So many attempts have been made to put a successful
plan (for raising the consciousness and vibration of the planet)
into place, that this latest plan seemed to come out of the blue.
And while we are in it and experiencing it in physical form, we can
easily get blindsided and most certainly flattened, unable to see
the forest for the trees.

At the end of April and beginning of May, it was clear that many of
us were going to be “removed” from the planet for a while, while a
cleansing was taking place. I can remember telling friends that we
would be lifted up like beautiful ornaments on a table while the
table was dusted and cleaned, and then we would be put back down.
But I had no idea it would take this long…nor be so challenging!
For the past three years or so, many of us at our soul levels (or
those at the helm of this process) have been putting together new
and revised plans to support this impending and certain Shift of
the Ages. Many miscalculations were made, all with good intentions,
and this resulted in many changes with the  course and a much
longer and drawn out plan than was anticipated. Very briefly put,
it was thought that the souls here on the planet now would take
over on their own, holding a high vibration and connecting together
like a grid, but not enough souls chose to grow and expand and
thus, we did not take over on our own.

Many attempts were made to try and keep the vibration high enough
by separating from lower vibrations through a separation of the
worlds and then yet another one. Even after we “arrived” in a new
space in the cosmos, this alone did not seem to have an effect on
the tight grip of old patterns and denser and darker energies. Even
in higher vibrating energies, many continued to create the old once

So this latest plan was finally implemented, and with so many of us
acutely weary from the extended time it had taken thus far, this
latest plan really took a tole on many of us. Many also went into
fear as so much that had been “predicted” did not come to pass as
the plan had to continually be tweaked due to unpredictable fear
based behavior patterns by many souls on the earth.  Was everything
over and done with? Was all we had been through one big sad joke?
Did the planet decide to descend into hell instead of into heaven?
Not enough souls were “ready” for a higher vibrating existence nor
ready to connect to one another. So then, a massive cleansing
needed to occur. Many times I likened it to receiving chemotherapy
treatments in tandem with huge “energy bombs” that blew anything
and everything out of its old groove.  More on this later.
Basically, we had a re-run of 2009 during the past several months.
With similar planetary and celestial movements, and similar
experiences, but it is hoped that it will turn out different this
time because of all the cleansing. Let’s cross our fingers. In
addition, many of us have been “removed” for a while, so that is a
bit different too. (Feelings of not being all here, not in our
body, blocked from our creativity, difficulty in waking up in the
morning, memory problems, not on top of our game, etc., are
symptoms of being removed for awhile.) Because of the cleansing
plan, we had to get out of the road. We had to be removed from the
massive energy blasts that were due to hit, and which DID hit! But
there were other reasons as well why many of us needed to duck and

There were those who continued to depend upon others to receive
their light. A few months ago, I visited one of my favorite spots
in Southwest Colorado where I had lived in times past. A huge
energy vortex at the time, it was truly a magical place. But what a
difference now. The higher vibrating energy there had been sucked
dry by many who came to experience this energy. And after awhile,
the higher level energy was finally depleted. This same scenario
was also experienced by souls on the planet who were carrying light
within themselves. They were getting sucked dry and thus needed to
remove themselves for a while in order to give these dependent
souls time to find their own light within themselves and in their
own way.

In this way, a new plan was devised, and even if many of us were
not aware of it, at our soul levels we followed along. We had to
completely cut off from the rest of the planet for a while. If ever
our loving natures ventured out, they were many times taken
advantage of, disrespected, and mistreated.  Many of us had to walk
around the planet sealed tighter than Fort Knox…no openings
allowed. We were simply following the new plan and removing our
energy for a while. The connections consisting of heart energies
remained nonetheless, and so, finding or maintaining these was a
beautiful consolation.

Beginning with the solstice in June, the massive “energy bombings”
arrived. Just when we felt we might be situated somewhere once
again, pow! Along would come a huge hit and we would be knocked out
of our grooves all over again. Everything had to be removed and
usurped from its prior location so that the big heat of the
“chemotherapy” treatments could take hold. So then, everything was
usurped and what did not need to remain was “burned off.”

Experiencing heat stroke with our animal companions and ourselves
was common during this time. Have a lower vibrating thought of fear
or negativity, and the heat brigade would rush in and clean up!
What an intense training in positive and higher vibrating thinking!
Because of all of the above, there was a massive absence of light
during these months. Those holding light were sealed up like a
vault, or under cover, while what remained was being bombarded by
the cleaning crew implementing a massive scrub down and clean up
mission! In this way, there was nothing to connect to. We were
separated from much, and at the same time, in yet another massive
birth canal, unable to see outside of its walls. Completely empty
and surrounded by seeming darkness was a common occurrence. And
those chemotherapy treatments left nothing much within us…we had
to be wiped clean for a very new start. Seemingly no light
anywhere, but lots of destruction and removal everywhere. Many
souls chose to leave the planet during this time as well.

In times past, prior attempts at bringing up the vibration of the
planet allowed for greater wiggle room or certainly more choices to
be made.  But what resulted each and every time was an eventual
allowing, which resulted in the darker or denser energies building
up once again and continuing to grip and hold our new earth in
lower vibrating patterns. So this time, these lower vibrating
energies needed to seriously  be removed so that the light could
finally take hold, take over, and continue growing. No more false
starts, stutters and sputters, and eventual collapses. Serious
action was now called for here. A clean slate was needed for
different choices to be made. In this way, what needs to sprout now
is the light. It needs to dominate. This newest plan then, also
involved a loss of choice and power during these months, but there
was good reason.

We would tell our vehicle to turn right and it would go left. Step
on the brake and we would go forward. Step on the gas and we would
go backwards. Start something new, become excited, and the next day
it would blow up. Try and think of something new, and it would not
gel. A piece would trickle in, we would follow the crumbs (the VERY
FEW crumbs), and then it would suddenly disappear. What was
happening here was an attempt to hold onto a new shore while we
were still flying down the river, not yet at our intended
destination. Not enough had been cleared away to reveal the new and
pristine energy that was to remain. Not time to hold onto anything
quite yet.

All this time we were being divinely protected. Strangely enough,
all our needs were being met, if even in strange and unusual ways.
Something knew more than we did, that there was a light at the end
of this new tunnel, even if we were being blocked from knowing
ourselves, and it guided and protected us all the way. This
something, this beautiful energy from above, these glorious angels
that continue to watch over us, twisted and turned us into grooves
that would keep us safe, untouched as much as possible, and most
certainly, in alignment with our very new spaces, even if we were
still unsure what and where these spaces would be.

After we were done experiencing the massive pressure tunnel created
by all the celestial events beginning with the solstice, we finally
landed somewhere on August 8th. We may have felt that we were
finally “somewhere,” that we were now home and that we could
exhale. But only for a few days, as it did not stick. During this
time we may have felt like we were in a parallel universe, or
perhaps we had gone back in time, or even felt unsure of where we
truly were. Like two massive ships docking side by side, attempting
to connect to each other, one parallel universe to another, we may
have felt great but only for about four days. We bounced out of the
new connection. Things really got tough after that because there
was NOTHING to hold onto then. Plans that had been put in place
were suddenly changed, new information received was suddenly not
implemented, and this was when things really got tough.

Many souls left the planet during this time. My prior husband Phil
passed away suddenly from a massive stroke and heart attack. With
all the losses and deterioration during this time, it was a
challenging time for many. As August neared its end, the “energy
bombings” ended as well. Then the “releasing” began (the dizziness
and vertigo felt from our light bodies assisting in taking us
somewhere new was common during this time). We were beginning a
process of being released from old obligations and much of anything
that had been holding us down and keeping us back. By
mid-September, the releasing process was gaining momentum and the
message was clear that we were DONE. We had completed this
monumental phase and we were finally done. We were done with all we
had agreed to do this past year, and even done with all we had
agreed to do for the entire first BOOK of the ascension process. We
were now free and clear. We may have felt like suddenly travelling,
starting a brand new life, and so forth, as we prepared ourselves,
FINALLY, for the new.

Even though many of us experienced great challenges during this
time, there were others who held the level below us steady. Their
work was thriving, and they seemed untouched. “Why am I suffering
so, and Joe is having his best year yet?!” we may have wondered.
“Am I being punished for something?” Everything could not
transition at once, or crash at once, or the planet would be in
quite a catastrophe! So then, now that many of us are “done,” we
will now connect to each other and create a brand new grid. An
energy “pin” has been put into place to hold things steady until
these new connections are complete. And when they are complete,
this “pin” will be removed and the level below us will then begin
to collapse.

Is the internet going to collapse too? No one can predict a
scenario like this, but it has certainly outlived its original and
pristine purpose and become contaminated like so many other arenas.
The “New Age” movement is over as well, but where we will find
ourselves is on an even playing field with those who match us
through heart connections.

Many made great strides during this time. We adjusted our personal
energy patterns where they needed adjusting (I am still not done
yet!), and in this way, we will finally be able to connect to one
another as was originally planned. Our energies are much more
subtle now, if we allow them to be. But there are yet others who
have not chosen to benefit from looking within and making changes.
We will find ourselves connecting to those with whom we belong, and
thank goodness, because we can no longer go it alone. We need this
new grid, and it will be comprised of each and every one of us who
have chosen to stay and continue on with the creation and/or
experience of the new planet earth.

Wishing you heaven in your heart, starlight in your soul, and
miracles in your life during these miraculous times,

Karen Bishop
http://www.emergingearthangels.com (for now!)


Releasing the old 3D world and accelerating into 5D consciousness is hard work

There is no doubt that we are living in precarious times.  I often ask people that I know if they actually believe we are still living in the same world we were born into.  I often get a strange look but it’s not an odd question it just depends on the consciousness ladder you are residing on.  I have come to the conclusion that experiencing ascension is a strange ride.  When I listen to others who describe their kundalini awakening as a blissful moment full of love I have no idea what they are talking about.  My kundalini awakening was painful and brought on psychosis and soon after my life collasped and is still collasping as we speak.  I have previously written about my own experience of kundalini awakening in older posts so if you are experiencing this right now please look through the archives. 

 This phenomena which is being labelled ascension is meant to release you from the old level of consciousness you were born into and transform you into the true powerful being you truly are.  This in itself is fantastic I can’t tell you how much more clued in I am now since my kundalini kicked off which is a great gift.  I have also become more focused and eager to live my true purpose.  A few years ago I would not have had the confidence to be writing this blog.  But in the same breath I have become marginalised from friends and family and I often find myself alone as very few can relate to me as I have shifted and raised my vibration so much that I no longer resonate with the majority of those around me.  This is one of the biggest indicators that suggest you are leaving the old 3D world behind.  Everything that was created there has to be pruned, released and reborn.  This is not an easy journey there is alot of loss that is involved.  There is plenty of information about the shift of consciousness coming to this planet and when we look at what is happening in our world the collaspe is very evident.  It is a moderately slow collaspe not everything is disappearing all at the same time but the intensity is certainly gathering momentum.  And just as in the macro in the micro we are experiencing these shifts and changes in our own lives too.  Part of the old framework is still there but the background is shifting and changing. 

Although I am more than happy to leave the old 3D world behind I do wonder if the 5D ‘new’ earth will be a better place.  At the moment very few of us are there on a regular basis.  We are sort of in limbo probably popping in and out as we still have to have regular contact with the old ways.  Also, there is so much division and deception within the new age community that I’m of the belief that there is still a long road to travel down.  I can’t tell you just how much junk is out there at the moment and I as many others have fallen prey to it from time to time.  There are so many self proclaimed gurus telling us how we should feel and what is what, and to me this is disappointing.  I have always loved the metaphysical world from an early age but just as everything else is collasping to be reborn I would say that this area is not immune.  It too needs to be cleared out so that the new and genuine can be born in its place.

So, I imagine at least for the time being that the new 5D earth will still have some hurdles to overcome as we slowly make the shif towards this new consciousness.  For each of us that which is no longer working for us is currently being taken away whether we like it or not inorder for us to move forward.  Relationships are breaking down, friendships ending and money, well, that’s a whole other subject but let’s be honest it’s pretty non-existent for those of us currently making this shift.  How many of us have even managed to keep a roof over our heads in the last few years is a miracle to say the least.  It’s been a very difficult time for many.

Yes making this shift of consciousness is hardwork.  It is tiring physically and mentally.  The aches, the pains, the tears,  the disappointments.  Cleaning out the soul in order to shift vibrationally is not just about feeling at peace with oneself there are also some distressing moments that need to be embraced, understood and resolved.  And this is part of the true journey. We must learn to assimilate the light and dark within us.  Some days the dark wins and other days the light.  We are humans and these qualities exist within us equally.  So, don’t feel bad if you are not shifting to 5D consciousness peacefully.  Some days I go kicking and screaming, other days with pain in my heart.  This is hard work and there are many out there who do not understand what we are going through.  They are not into this and probably never will be.  It still doesn’t stop the fact that this is happening and they too are shifting even if  they do not realise it, so keep your head up and feel with your heart.  That which does not resonate with you does not have to become part of your belief system or be embraced by you. 


No you are not crazy it’s just the energies of August

Feeling unbalanced, a bit paranoid, tearful, tired, exhausted, fed up?  Feeling like your life is on the verge of change but nothing has happened yet? Well, you’re not alone and this is the reality for many of us at the moment.  Last week I spent most of the hours of the day fighting extreme fatigue.  When I feel like this I know something big is on its way.  Yes, there are zones of conflict in the midst of turmoil as we speak.  The floods of Pakistan, the forest fires in Russia and Portugal and the continuing saga of the oil ‘disaster’ which is not being reported accurately by any means are just a few events that have kicked in since the cardinal cross at the beginning of the month began.  But as August opened we have also been inundated with new energies as the solar flare cycle which has been quiet for quite some time re-emerged firing off a massive ejection.  This only means one thing, new coded information is being hurled towards us and these energies have to be assimilated into our bodies and if I may add our conciousness which governs how we see, feel, and react.  I feel that August will be a month of incubation although a fiery seclusion waiting to burst.  And that all of these energies will climax which has been the theory all along but I believe we will have to wait until September and October before the fireworks go off. Which most likely will occur when Pluto awakens from its slumber in mid-September.  So be forwarned.

So if you have been having a hard time this month know it will pass and that you are not alone.  There are many shifts and changes going on in our lives at this time.  Endings are never easy but with every ending there is always a beginning.  I would like to leave you with the latest astrological weather report from Anne Ortelee who describes what we are currently experiencing very well.  I love the way she writes and she describes the energy of the moment so well.

Take care, Valentine.

Weekly Weather August 16, 2010

Our Cardinal T-square perfects this week, culminating in moments of choice for each of us. T-squares are crossroads in the heavens, asking us to make choices and choose our path. A three point heavenly cross guides us as we choose our next direction and head off towards our life. Often we come to a profound realization about ourselves during heavenly cross roads.

This cross road is a bit bigger than most others have been. There are 5 outer planets, which are societal and life direction planets, changing signs and starting new journeys. When the planet change signs, we change down here on earth too. As above, so below. As without, so within. We live in an interconnected world and universe where the symbolism and synchronicity interplay in our lives across time and space.

I always laugh and love it when some one asks me if I really believe in astrology. I reply “Of course I do. And YOU believe in astrology too! Even if you actually don’t realize it.” Asked to explain, often with a scowl on their face, (translated as: How dare I suggest that THEY believe in Astrology?), I reply “Well the Sun affects your behavior ~ you wear a coat in winter and sweat in the summer ~ just as the Sun impacts all life and causes the seasonal cycles of everything on earth. And the Moon makes the tides of the ocean move as well as the tides of water within you. The OCEAN! The Moon moves the Ocean! So if those TWO bodies have such a profound impact on us down here on earth, how can we ignore the other bodies up there?” And I smile sweetly, often with a giggle added, just for extra emphasis as in ~ you silly, you never thought of THAT before did you?

Weeks like the past few and the one to come, just affirm my understanding of the cycles and impact of same. We Virgos LOVE a good system for categorizing and organizing things. So forward we go to the t-square culmination that we’ve been waiting for! Our next chapter awaits us ~ as the heavens present us with a moment of choice.

But first a word of caution. I’ve had a few clients call with recent suicides in their lives, particularly that first week in August when Mars was so active. This is a big week for feeling you can’t take it a moment more and acting on it too. Another big suicide week. Soooooo, IF you know someone who has been having a particularly hard time lately, take the time to give them a call and talk to them. Let them know that this week is particularly hard energetically. And that all the difficult energy will start to abate after the weekend. However, THIS week will be tough so you want them to know you love them and would like to help in any way you can. They know you believe in that astrology stuff ~ and in a secret part of their being, they resonate to it (even if they don’t admit it on the surface or to your face). Heck, you always get the problems that happen during a Mercury retrograde right!

So encourage them to make NO PERMANENT decisions or final solutions to their problems to the extent possible. No acting out their inner Mel Gibsons or Steven Slaters, even if they really, really want to deploy the emergency exit chute while chugging a beer. And if they mention they are thinking of killing themselves or killing some one else, talk to them, all night long if need be. Get them help. Take it SERIOUSLY! This is the week when they will act on it. If they are thinking they are having a nervous breakdown, take them to the hospital. If some one is stalking or threatening someone you know, encourage the person to get OUT of their normal life routines for the week. And to be careful. No points for bravery. No cavalier dismissing it as foolishness. Take care of yourself and others this week.

I hate to be an alarmist astrologer but some weeks are rougher than others. This week we have Jupiter opposing Saturn for the second time and Saturn squaring Pluto for the third time. Saturn/ Pluto is a terrorist aspect. Jupiter /Saturn is separating hardship, endings and structure from the good times and sense of optimism. The planets are in signs that are CARDINAL so they like to take action! And Uranus is at the crazy making degree of 29 Pisces, where the boundaries between illusion and delusion are very, very frayed and fragile. We need to take good care of each other this week.

Essentially, we will all be fighting or arguing with the principle of being our own authority, growing up and being the adult in the room. Part of us wants to be a big kid and stomp our feet. Part of us knows we have to grow up now. Jupiter and Pluto are both Saturn’s kids. The kids are fighting with Dad, or the authority ~ perceived, believed, real or unreal, in their lives. We will be struggling with our own ideas of authority too. How grown up are we really? How much of us is still 5 and wanting to be comforted? We have to comfort ourselves this week.

Mercury stations to go retrograde after setting off the t-square by declination aspect which finds him siding with Saturn and fighting with Uranus and Jupiter. So expect unexpected news that is rather shocking. Sun opposes Neptune and Chiron so the sense of illusion or the dream dissolves and you see things clearly that you may not have seen before. Both Venus and Mars have hard aspects to Neptune and Chiron too. In their case, the planets of desire and action are in a stressful place of needing to take action to find relief. And they are working together to start a new cycle right as all the other planets are collapsing in piles of exhaustion.

So take care of yourself. Take care of your loved ones. Get extra nurturing. Get your self extra support if your old addictions come a’ calling with all the tension in the sky. One of the things I noticed in the Steven Slater story was the reference to 12 steps and sobriety on his Face book page and the reporting that he grabbed a beer as he made his exit down the emergency slide after a very, very bad day at work. It is a VERY easy time to slip back into old destructive ways of nurturing yourself so be careful to get yourself extra support if you find yourself tempted.

And in a week it will be all over! If the financial markets are going to collapse, this is the week. So fingers crossed (and toes too) we all make it to the other side. I am rooting for you! And you need to root for you too. And make sure to root for the people in your life who need rooting for! We are all in this beautiful world together for a reason. And what a ride eh? Clear those cobwebs and fears! Full steam ahead to the next chapter!


Monday August 16 Moon in Scorpio kicks up some intense energy as the Sun has an aspect of brilliance. Moon has nice closing aspects of a trine to Uranus offering creative energy to draw upon. Make sure to note your dreams or great ideas upon awakening. Venus argues with the principle of health and healing shifting her energy to other areas. Be careful not to indulge in bad old behaviors today. Extra emotions abound as Jupiter approaches his opposition with Saturn. Fights with authorities…. Hmmm. Mars squares the nodes offering us the opportunity to choose up or down, good or bad, left or right, whining and crying or growing up. Or maybe a bit of both? It is a choice day. Jupiter opposes Saturn part two of three. Back to May 23rd, when they opposed each other for the first time. Their third time is March 28, 2011. Part two of the opposition asks you to focus on the project you began in May 28, 2000 when they joined at 22 Taurus to begin a new cycle. It calls to mind December 17, 2005, June 22, 2006 and October 25, 2006 when they squared each other, testing whether this was the right choice for you. Now, as they oppose each other, think about the changes you want or need to make to move your life and life’s work forward.

Tuesday August 17 Moon in Sagittarius answers to Jupiter, recently bruised after his fight yesterday with Saturn. The closing aspect is a square to Uranus suggesting separating energy that pushes you to a new place or wants to end a situation. It is a rocking and rolling day as there are numerous aspects in the heavens. Venus erupts with passion and moves rapidly affecting emotions, finances and desires. Mars links up with Eris, the Goddess of Discord to produce some mighty irritated and irritable energy. We are all cranky! Don’t take action if it is destructive. And most actions will be destructive. Be aware the desire is to go nuclear. And quickly. Will that actually HELP the situation? Venus, the principle of love, money and caring is deeply wounded today as she links up with Chiron. She also reaches the end of her proverbial rope. She’s frustrated and angry. Old wounds can be opened. Look at the wounds. Apply astringent. Clear it out. Clean it out. It is YOUR wound, but it existed in your soul to create the life you have. It will never go away but it can be nurtured back into silence or quiet. If you think about it, your wound actually helped you become who you are today. Wounds exist for a reason. Try to understand the reason. I know it hurts but that is the way to clarity.

Wednesday August 18 Moon in Sagittarius continues to push the energy forward passionately. Venus squares the nodes today offering her the same choice Mars had to make on Monday. Be careful not to operate out of your wound. What do you love? Is this situation part of getting you clear on what you want to create in your life? Maybe not with the person or situation standing right before you but it is something you want or need just the same. Be clear. Be brave. Hold your own hand. Support your self. Support your dream. Make a clear choice that supports your desire and life path. Don’t choose out of fear of your wound! Don’t act out of fear of or from your wound! Mars has an ending energy today as he has stresses and agonizes about the decision(s) before him. No permanent endings with knives, guns, jumps or pills! This is a decision time but not time for PERMANENT decisions. Caution around words as things can “end” today. Mars is fighting mad but also boxing against or with smoke and steam. What he is fighting is actually a figment or illusory battle of and in his own mind. Mars is building up a head of steam to take action. Try and reason with him. Or move out of his way. Be careful today. Take precautions. Even if YOU are crystal clear and paying attention, the OTHER guy can be totally out of his or her mind. Caution on angry encounters. Mars has a booster rocket on him today ~ and can be just as explosive. Sex can be completely amazing but there is a strong level of fantasy to all actions taken today so be aware of that as a subset of the energy. While it might look like an amazing partnership, reality is right around the corner. Mercury links up with Saturn by declination and receives very difficult news. Go home and pull the covers over your head (if you can) or call your support people. Relationships can end or transform today.

Thursday August 19 Moon in Capricorn brings us down to reality, with a loud bump. Mercury is slowing to a stop in the sky. Moon goes through the t-square ~ Capricorn Moon can be a critical and difficult energy today as we find the flaw or problem rather than the good parts. Our t-square is triggered yet again. Sun faces a stressful choice as it aspects the Nodes. The power of a booster rocket sets off Venus and her energy today as she too faces off and dissolves the illusions fostered by Neptune. It is NOT okay. There IS a problem! High emotions rule the day. Sun pushes for hope but Mars joins with powerful destructive energy today by declination. War? Collapses? Chaos? Something mighty, mighty big. Mercury fights with Uranus by declination. Words can cause endings, separations, chaos and changes today. Mercury is stopping in the sky as these aspects occur making the words even more powerful and potent. Sun has about had it with these difficult energies and wants to pull the plug on the situation. A great day for firings and break ups and crashes and collapses. The structure just can’t hold it together any more. Pluto asks us to take a new approach to partnerships that are not working for us any more. People can get on your last nerve. Remember the good times when you are feeling like lashing out. This is a transit. They are having crappy stuff on their side too.

Friday August 20 Moon in Capricorn receives a trine from stationing Mercury today. Mercury stopped in the heavens forces us all to look with new eyes at the dawning of a new day where everything is changed. Our souls feel enormous needs to stretch out and relieve the stress even as we feel more building within our being. Sun opposes Neptune so the clarity begins to break through the fog. We will start to see things clearly. This is what the crossroads was for in YOUR life. The moment of clearness arrives ~ or starts to arrive. High emotions move things rapidly. Venus fights with the Goddess of the Sea, Sedna, asking us to understand the role of our interconnected world. The oceans roar as emotions swirl. Mars and Venus both sesquiquadrate Chiron, opening old wounds, causing us to feel a bit ill perhaps. Chiron at the last degrees of Aquarius reminds us that we are all members of the same tribe, like it or not. What happens to one can happen to all. Venus joins with Mars today an hour before Mercury stations retrograde. Venus/ Mars square the Node and form a Hammer of Thor with Neptune and Chiron. Our beliefs and understanding of our world will be forever altered by the events of today. Our pattern of reality is changing before our eyes.

Saturn day August 21 Saturn squares Pluto in the early morning hours, finishing the third of three squares. The first was November 15 2009, the second was January 31, 2010 and the third is today. This is a terrorist or war aspect. It is active when ever we are experiencing terrorist activity. Moon is in deep places all day long allowing us to emotionally process the events of the last week. Sun opposes Chiron, activating the fears and wounds but also offering us an opportunity to take action and heal. Saturn forms a contraparallel aspect with Uranus which is mighty powerful for transformation and shifting of reality. We break free in a way we never have before. We break down in a way we never have before. Once we break, we can begin to heal. Vesta’s square says time will heal all and time will heal nothing. Some things can never heal.

Sunday August 22 Moon in Aquarius allows us to detach and move up 20,000 feet to get a better view of what is actually going on. Moon has helpful aspects as she goes through the t-square and attempts to make sense of what is going on. Sun is inconjunct Uranus asking us to adjust and find stability. Astraea, the asteroid of hygiene, cleanliness and astringency, crystal clear vision stations to go retrograde. We pucker a bit, like biting into a juicy lemon. It stings but also feels good. The energy starts to separate and abate. Relief is right around the corner.

Copyright © 2010 A. C. Ortelee

The Summer of 2010 and releasing through tears

I’m back! Please forgive my delay in posts July was a whirlwind of a month with the launch of my first novel, ‘Zoe Evans’ Possible Worlds the Crystal,’ and with all of the hard work I had been pouring in getting it ready for the publishers for publication I realised I needed a long break.  I think we often forget that overkill is not always the best remedy and at some point it catches up with you and the brain says “Stop! I need a break.”

Alas, I am recuperating which is what I want to discuss in this latest post.  This summer has been filled with some very emotional energy and it is still currently with us and will be as we move through the month of August.  As 2010 crept in at the beginning of the year I knew this was going to be a dramatic year for many of us.  For me a novel I wrote almost nine years ago was going to be published this year which was exciting but also exhausting.  So many of us are experiencing rapid change in our lives now.  I have never been a lucky person in life and things do not come easily to me.  I’ve always had to work very hard but now for many of us who have not had it easy we are realising that we have choices in life and we can create our own luck.

The lunar eclispe on the 26th June and the solar eclipse on the 11th July 2010 surely kicked up alot of stuff for many of us and we have now whether conciously or not embraced the fact that life is going to change whether we like it or not.  The energies that these eclipses kicked up have been very intense and completely tiring.  Eclipses are always emotional but I found the eclipses this summer to be very cathartic.  I am an Earth sensitive.  So I feel very in tune with any new energies that  hit our atmososphere and enter into our bodies.  At the end of June I cried it seemed all day for a week as the eclipse approached.  My crown chakra buzzed and felt tense as the energies hit my body.  I felt exhausted and was crying constantly.  I was not depressed but the sadness was deep. I was releasing although I was not clear exactly what I was releasing.  Sometimes when new energies hit the Earth it has this effect on us and I certainly was feeling the new albeit in a strange way.  But, I am sure others had similar experiences and I feel tears have been very dominant this summer. 2010 has been a very emotional year so far.  I would term it as the year of emotion.  The dramatic earthquakes that have hit Haiti, Chile, China and other places have been very draining energetically.  Couple this with the ash cloud in the early spring in Europe and the oil spill, or should I say ‘catastrophe’ in the Gulf  it is safe to say that world events have certainly shaken many of us up.  The solar eclipse on the 11th July certainly did bring fresh new positive energy in.  There was a lightness in the air for the first couple of weeks of July and I myself felt very uplifted for a short while in comparison to the moodiness I had to fight at the end of June. 

The dreaded and much talked about Cardinal Climax, Cardinal Cross came into fruition on the 6th August changing the energy once again.  I found myself feeling angry and low in energy from mid July and again the tears came back.  The energy that is currently around us reminds me of being in a ‘void’ period.  There is potential for growth but everything is delayed.  I have a sneaky feeling it is the quiet before the storm and I’m sure October will be an action packed month.  All of this energy is building towards something and as we have seen in the first half of 2010 this is not going to be a quiet year.

So in the meantime I have been laying low and keeping my distance from others.  Crying, releasing accepting the restrictions that are around and waiting for the clearing and infusion of new energy to take hold and deliver the news it has to bring.  

So if you feel like releasing tears during these times know you are not alone.  There is an unspoken malaise in the air, as if we are in a holding pattern.  Take a breath and as Depeche Mode say, “Enjoy the silence.”

Until next time.


Planetary Ascension Symptoms

I know I have been feeling alot of pressure in my crown chakra area along with a few other niggles here and there and if I am then others are too. So I thought I’d present an article directly focused on Ascension symptoms as the energies are currently very heavy at the moment and with the upcoming cardinal cross in August these energies will continue to build.  If you do a web search you will find plenty of information on ascension symptoms, but I feel it always helps getting another perspective from someone else.  We do not have to suffer alone, even though sometimes it feels like we are but many of us are suffering with the same symptoms. I have decided to rename the term at least for my own reference as I feel the common term Ascension symptoms conjures up images of the rapture and may be a bit unapproachable for those who are new to all of this. 

There is plenty of information on the web and in books that discuss the times we are now in.  To recap we are no longer on the timeline for death and destruction which had been prophesied by so many.  Anilihation was very much on the cards for the human race but this has now all changed. In its place a new timeline has emerged with new beginnings allowing a new consciousness not seen for many ages to perservere on our planet.  This new age is termed the Age of Aquarius.  A move towards more balance in our society is very real.  Many of the changes we are seeing in our financial systems on a global scale are only confirming that the old ways are no longer being permitted.  We will continue to see the destruction of old systems whether they be financial or political at an alarming rate so in a sense we are still very much only at the beginning of a great change to come.

This is due to the new arrival of energy entering our Earth through high level frequencies being carried by solar storms.  The energy of the solar storms carries with it new coded information that work with Earth’s magnetics.  Alot of research has been done on the shift of Earth’s magnetosphere in the last few years as it has shifted quite dramatically.  The Earth also has a new spin again this has been researched and well documented and since 2004 this has become ever more prevalent. Many of the lightworker family have also been working whether consciously or unconsciously to help raise the vibration of the planet  which over the years has taken its toll on many of us.  For some we have now been released from this, while others take our place fighting the dark and helping to raise the vibration of the planet.

One of the first symptoms I feel impoortant to note is the raising of your kundalini. From this point many of the symptoms you face will be related to this shift of energetics that takes place in the body.  In one of my articles I discuss my own experience when my kundalini began to awake.  I won’t review the story here but suffice is to say I had no idea what was going on with me. Kundalini awakenings are like alarm clocks going off in the DNA signalling that it is time for the body to make a shift.  Many of us are experiencing spontaneous kundalini awakenings which is unprecendented.  You are not alone in this. Kundalini awakenings for some create great anxiety in the body and I believe anxiety plays very much into the release of kundalini. I was an anxiety wreck for years before my kundalini even released and once it did for another year or so I suffered very badly with anxiety and panic attacks.  Then one day suddenly the anxiety disappeared and I began to be calm. My body felt as if it had been cleared of a great weight and I literally felt lighter.  A good reliever of anxiety is hynoptherapy this will help you to clear your emotional body and get rid of the fears and blockages that you are being forced to face. It will also help you control the anxiety and panic attacks. It may not relieve these symptoms completely but it will offer much needed assistance without having to take mainstream medications.

Of course feelings of anxiety will bring on interrupted sleep and sleeping problems are very much a symptom of ascension related problems.  Only a few years ago I was barely sleeping and when I did I would sleep for 2-3 hours at a time and then wake up.  I went through a long cycle where I would take an eternity to fall asleep then wake up at 3.00am and stay awake for the rest of the night.  These type of sleep cycles are quite common and again you are not alone even though it feels like it in the dead of night.

Feeling extremely hot and extremely cold.  Again unusual feelings of heat will rise through the body when your kundalini releases.  You can feel extremely hot one minute and extremely cold an hour later.  A common side affect of rising kundalini is ascension flu. This is extreme heat where you feel you are burning from the inside and your crown chakra hurts immensely.  When you experience this know that you are releasing a large amount of toxins and karmic baggage.  When you experience ascension flu it usually lasts for 24 to 48 hours. If you try to go to a doctor no doubt they will not understand what you are talking about.

Body convulsions.  The first year my kundalini released I would literally wake up after feeling like an earthquake had moved through my body.  I had never had anything like this happen to me before but my whole body would literally vibrate and shake.  Again it is the kundalini energy releasing and moving throughout the body cleansing the chakras.

Feeling like you are wired and out of your body. I suffered very badly with this when my kundalini first activated.  I literally felt as if I was hovering outside of my body for months before I began to feel grounded in my body once again.  When the energies are very heavy and pounding this feeling becomes very difficult for me. I always know when new energies have arrived as this feeling is a great indicator.  When I feel this way I centre myself and tell myself to relax as it will pass.  It is a strange feeling and there is no easy way around it.  Again it is just the physical body adjusting to the frequency of energies and most likely our lightbodies bouncing between dimensions.

Phantom death.  There is not alot of information on the internet about phantom deaths but I am sure they are on the rise.  This is not a real death but when you experience this it is as if the door closes on the life you once knew and you feel yourself moving into a new reality.  I experienced my phantom death when I was very ill.  My kundalini had activated and I was unable to move, sleep, and barely eat for two months.  My crown chakra hurt intensely and I was in great pain.  As I laid in pain I felt death around me and for a split second I’m sure I did die.  I would say I had experienced an exit point and I was given a choice to leave or stay.  I decided to stay but soon after the person I had always been began to demand great change and so everything in my life altered.

Steve Rother has released a great video about ascension symptoms and I would encourage you to watch it.  There are so many symptoms more than I have listed here.  Know that others are experiencing these symptoms as well and it is all for a great cause.  Your evolution.


Valentine St Aubyn

Understanding Astrology

Aurora Borealis or Northern lights hitting Earth's atmosphere

I have often had people ask me over the years if Astrology is real.  I completely understand why many do not believe it is real as a conscious effort from those in the know have worked dilligently to discredit this ancient science. Although many do not realise it Astrology is a science that is based on mathematical precision.  It is also a metaphysical science as its proof can be seen through the energetic matrix that is present on this planet.  We feed into this energetic matrix and upon birth infuse ‘cosmic codes’ into our DNA that can be read through the astrological chart.  A very good way of proving this energetic matrix can be seen in the Aurora Borealis.  In this instance, we can see with the physical eye the flow of energy coming off of the planets and sun into our dimensional fabric.  We then breathe this energy into ourselves as it permeates through everything around us.  This is how Astrology works on the mundane level.  It is simply a system of energetics computed through Mathematical precision and interpreted through a graph like structure, the natal wheel.

Up until the 20th Century Astrology was a part of Astronomy and was practiced alongside one another.  Kepler practiced Astrology as have many others such as Karl Jung, the father of modern Psychology and student of Freud.  Of course astronomers today have the power in naming new bodies that are found in our Galaxy.  When the recently discovered planet Sedna was named Astrologers began to feel very in tune with the energy this planet carried and felt that the right name was given.  Sedna is an Innuit Godess who protects the oceans. Interesting that this planet was discovered at a crucial time when we have been so focused on our oceans and the life forms such as polar bears, and penguins who get their sustenance from it. This is the beauty of Astrology and there is no coincidence here just a reminder that we are all feeding from a collective consciousness that is joined whether we are aware of it or not.

So what can Astrology do for us?  Many Astrologers may have different ideas about what Astrology should be used for.  Should it be used for predictive purposes, psychoanalysis, predicting world events?  There will always be divisions in this respect but one thing is for sure it can help you understand what is going on in your life.  What lessons you have come into this incarnation to work on, and why some of the main players in your life act the way they do.  It is a great tool for learning and helps one discover themselves.

We are now in a period of great change.  There is a shift of energy that is arriving onto this planet which many have termed Ascension.  More and more of us are having spontaneous kundalini awakenings as our bodies transmute its old carbon blueprint into a more crystalline base.  It is just not our planet that is ascending or lifting vibration it is our whole solar system and galaxy.  The heating up of our planet has alot more to do with metaphysical pheneomena than the emission of carbon gases.  NASA is well aware of this fact and has been gathering overwhelming data to confirm that something within the energetic backdrop of Earth and our solar system is changing.  Again, this information is being witheld from the public keeping people in a fog of ignorance but eventually many more people due to the increasing vibrational energies will awaken as strange symptoms of anxiety, fatigue and illness will become and harder and harder to ignore.

So, we can use Astrology to help us through these changing times ahead.  The planet Pluto is now in Capricorn which rules structures, and government.  We are in for some tough times financially and are only in the early stages of this great change.  There is no reason to fear this change just arm yourself with knowledge and be flexible with the changes that will occur around all of us. This summer things will definitely heat up and it will continue well into 2011 and the next few years due to the well known cardinal climax that is being discussed by many astrologers. The upcoming transits of Uranus and Pluto squaring off will also unlodge a great deal taking us into revolutionary territory.  Stay grounded and know that new beginnings are on the way and Astrology can help inform all of us to understand what these new beginnings represent.

Valentine St Aubyn

Mystical occult symbolism in Pop Culture part I

Lady Gaga flashing the eye of Horus her artistic nuances are very much rooted in illuminati occult symbolism

This article is not for the faint of heart.  Do you want the blue pill or the red pill? Choose wisely because once you learn the truth you may not like it. 

As we move into the Age of Aquarius the secrets of the past are no longer remaining hidden.  As the energies grow ever more intensely many of us are having kundalini awakenings at very young ages and spontaneously.  I had mine at age 35 with no one to guide me.  For centuries raising the kundalini has always been associated as a mystical event and only achieveable by those who are mature souls spiritually.  The Egyptian pharaohs and upper hierarchy used to practice kundalini rising in their temples hence the image of the cobra head worn in their headress as kundalini energy is associated with serpent power which is wise and illuminating. 

We are now moving into a new cycle of humanity and many of us are waking up quite dramatically. For those who have woken up we are no longer believing the lies told to us in school, in the news and all around us and we are demanding to learn the truth.  Maybe through this awakening you have also noticed the rise of occult TV programmes and films, lyrics in songs, books that delve into the depths of vampirism, satanism, and witchcraft hitting the mainstream in staggering numbers. It’s definitely cool to be dark, if you haven’t noticed to say the least.  

We are all being impacted by the new energies that are hitting the earth through the solar storms and these energies are bringing to light all that has been previously hidden.  What we are seeing are esoteric subjects aired in public for all to see.  The question is do you know what you are seeing and reading and do you understand what it is all about?

If you thought the movie the Matrix was a great movie but not grounded very much in reality think again.  The concept of the Matrix has been bouncing around for several decades.  Jordan Maxwell, the godfather of decoding illuminati symbolism, tried during the 80s to get the Matrix onto our screens alas without success but it would be several years later until the Wachowski Brothers made this wish a reality. 

That we live in a self-induced virtual reality is now being proven by Quantum Mechanics and the evidence is overwhelming to this fact.  I have often wondered if we are really here on planet Earth and it wasn’t until I had my Kundalini Awakening that I finally realised that I don’t think we really are.  But boy does it feel real! And it’s supposed to…Suffice to say that whereever we are we are definitely having an experience and our bodies act as a conduit of sorts emananting a frequency or program for our existence.  If you like these ideas you need to look into the work of David Icke and Jordan Maxwell, as there has been a great amount of research and writing into the existence of reality going beyond the Newtonian world that we are brainwashed to believe is real.  Let us not forget that Einstein smashed many of Newton’s theories but yet we are still being taught that the physical world is just that ‘physical’ and ‘3-dimensional’.  Anyway, more on that in a different article in this article I would like to introduce a few concepts that I have been researching now for a few years.  I would like to thank David Icke for inspiring me to write this post and if you like this have a look on his website as there is plenty more of this on his site.

Freemasonry rings - Freemasons come in all colours, races and ages

I have been very intrigued with  Freemasonry for several years now.  For me the search began when I tried to learn more about my grandfather, who was a Freemason.  He was a Black Freemason from Jamaica and a Master Mason which made things even more intriguing as I wanted to uncover his secrets.  My research into Freemasonry has brought me into researching the occult – the dark arts, as the two go hand in hand.  Whether you like to hear it or not  just as many people believe in Jesus Christ many people believe in Satan, and we are not talking about bible bashers and over zealous religious types.  You might laugh at this but as you begin to delve into occult symbolism Satanism is very prevalent  in prominent circles and has been for many centuries. This is nothing new it’s just that we are waking up to it.  At first it can be very disturbing but once you get beyond the initial shock you soon begin to learn just what these powerful assholes at the top of the society laddder really get up to and what they want, mainly domination and power at any cost.

My aim in researching occult symbolism is due to my own fascination in understanding the bigger picture to what I can see.  I’m weird like that and from a young age I have never taken anything at face value.  Yet, once you begin down this road you can never see the world the same again.  It has taken me a few years to fully comprehend what I have been learning and I’m still learning. Occult symbolism goes all the way to the top and it is a bit shocking once you fully grasp its meaning.

In further articles I will discuss the Occult symbolism in Hip Hop culture as it is full of it, but in the meantime in this article I would like to focus on pop music.  So on with the show.

I would like to add before I go on that my aim is not to single any artist out and condemn their music.  Even though I am able to see the symbolism that they are projecting for what it is, I still enjoy alot of their music even if I may not want to watch their videos. It’s just that it is better to be aware than unaware. If I was to stop listening to the vast amount of musical artists I like because of occult symbology it would rule out over 95% of the music I enjoy!

If you have ever wondered, and this is a big if, why so many pop princesses and princes seem to be flashing the one eyed thing I would like to help you understand. To begin, the one eyed thing consists of the pop star either covering one of their eyes with their hand, a piece of hair, or artistic prop.  What they are trying to draw you to is one eye, in occult circles it is known as the eye of Horus.  It is the eye that is seen on the back of the dollar bill.  Please take a moment and have a look for yourself. Get a dollar bill out and turn it over.

Background information on the Eye of Horus

The eye is the ‘all seeing eye of Horus’.  this eye is considered a demonic eye in certain occult circles.  In illuminati mythology it is either open or closed, depending upon the spiritual time of year and the state of the person psychically.  The symbol on the dollar bill is reinforcement and a reminder that the elite, those of the illuminati, are watching us.  The pyramid is an ancient form based on the holiness of the number 3 to the ancient mystery religions and it was a structure used specifically to focus a point of psychic activity for certain esoteric experiences.  Please do not belive that the pyramids in Egypt were used as burial chambers.  Come on the Egyptians loved ceremonies and transcending the physical form.  The pyramids were used for something much deeper than death chambers.  Napoleon discovered that when he spent the night in the Great Pyramid.


The Myth of Horus

“Horus, the son of Osiris and Isis, was called “Horus who rules with two eyes.” His right eye was white and represented the sun; his left eye was black and represented the moon. According to myth Horus lost his left eye to his evil brother, Seth, whom he fought to avenge Seth’s murder of Osiris. Seth tore out the eye but lost the fight. The eye was reassembled by magic by Thoth, the god of writing, the moon, and magic. Horus presented his eye to Osiris, who experienced rebirth in the underworld.

As an amulet the Eye of Horus has three versions: a left eye, a right eye, and two eyes. The eye is constructed in fractional parts, with 1/64 missing, a piece Thoth added by magic…

The Egyptians used the eye as a funerary amulet for protection against evil and rebirth in the underworld, and decorated mummies, coffins, and tombs with it. The Book of the Dead instructs that funerary eye amulets be made out of lapis lazuli or a stone called mak. Some were gold-plated.

It was called the “all-seeing Eye.” Other attributes associated with it are terror and wrath. According to some myths, the eye took on a personality of its own, swooping down out of the sky to right wrongs.”
– Dee Finney, Dreams of the Eye of Horus

Here are some pictures to illustrate what I am referring to, I guess you could say they are giving us ‘the evil eye’:

Rihanna covering her left eye

 If you are able to read energy, the energy coming off of this photo is very dark and menacing.  Rihanna used to be a very bright and beautiful young girl that is before she got involved with Jay Z more on that another time.

This image is cleverly crafted. We see the eye of horus on top of the pyramid. Madonna's left eye cannot be seen only her right eye showing. This is by no accident.

It is no secret that Madonna is drawn to esoteric mysteries and practices Kabbala an ancient mystical tradition that predates judaism from which the Jewish faith has originated.  Originally, Jewish rabbis were practitioners in Astrology, magic and ceremony of all sorts.  Nowadays, these practices are denied.  Most likely Madonna has risen in the ranks and is a high priestess of sorts within the Kabbala sect which is quite popular amongst Hollywood types.  Hence, why she has renamed herself Esther a Jewish name.

Just in case you didn't get it. This is what is on the back of Madonna's jacket

Singer from Paramore flashing the eye of horus - ask yourself why?

Marilyn Manson flashing the eye of Horus his left eye is shaded from view

In part II we will look at occult symbolism in TV and Film and begin to answer the question what is the purpose.

Until next time.

Valentine St Aubyn

Mercury turns direct and clarity returns

Well, one thing is for certain, I’m so glad that this last mercury retrograde phase is coming to a close. I cannot stress how emotional of a period it has been for many of us. The energy out there was so chaotic that I had to really step back and take a breath. The last two weeks of April and early May were incredibly intense to say the least and I was like a yo yo having my insides turned upside down with emotion and confusion. It is hard for me to gage how the energies affect others on the outside world but I would have to guess that many have been on a knife edge. I have very little to do with the outside world these days, and I’m glad for that. I enjoy being in my cocoon. I spend my time writing and I work nights. Working nights has given me a much needed rest from annoying people and lower denser energies. The last few years were very volatile for me. As I transmuted and worked through many of my issues I was faced on several occasions in my professional life with hostility that was beyond the ordinary and bordered on outright violence. However, the challenges I went through from 2006-2009 in particular have brought me to where I am now. In a new space, where I am learning to re-claim my power. One of Steve Rother’s channellings summed it up for me very well, learning how to put self first has been a weakness I have suffered with for my entire life. Not that I have been a rug for others to walk all over but I have often found it difficult putting up boundaries. Well, now I no longer suffer from that and all the work I have done through my ascension process has brought me to this point, which I am very thankful for even though I have made it kicking and screaming.

I believe in these last few weeks I and many of us have been through another transmutation phase hence why at least for myself my emotions were so dark and I was all over the place. I am a naturally positive person with Sagittarius Rising ruled by Jupiter and although I have my down moments, feeling sorry for myself and wallowing in misery is not something I give into often. Yet, something very deep was taking place in these last couple of weeks and it was intensified by the Mercury retrograde phase. Mercury retrograde periods usually ask us to review and re-think things. It is not a time to initiate new projects and I can say this with certainty as I have tried to launch new projects during a Mercury retrograde period and they always need to be reviewed a few months later. Yet something was definitely afoot and I think many of us came to some heartfelt conclusions.

We’ve been down a long and hard road. I’m certainly not a first waver and can honestly say that I was not consciously aware of my ascension process until 2007, although I do believe I began my ascension awakening back in 2000. It took me years to figure out what was going on with me and when I finally learned it was this thing called ‘ascension’ I was relieved that I was not going crazy. But I have never fit into mainstream life and have often wished to be on another planet so thinking on these terms was not new for me anyway. The times we are now living in are certainly very trying and the energies are pushing us to continuously transmute and grow, it never stops for any of us. I constantly have to keep learning exactly what ascension and all that is related to it means.

And that is what I want to stress in this post. As the month of May opened Karen Bishop wrote one of her darkest Wings post I have ever read, and then on the 15th May she said good-bye to us.  I feel sad seeing her go.  Her energy alert posts put so much into perspective for me over the last few years and I honestly have to say that I resonated with her work.  However, it doesn’t surprise me that she is moving on as we are all being pushed to grow and to do more work.  I have found over the last year that the information that may have resonated with me a few years ago no longer remains true the way it first did.  I caught myself just a couple of weeks ago thoroughly disagreeing with David Wilcock on a few issues.  I’ve always enjoyed David’s work but now that he is becoming ever more mainstream I find myself sifting through the information he presents with a more critical eye than I have in the past.  Even the founders of Project Camelot who have given us some great whistleblower documentaries have fallen out with each other.  So, indeed nothing stays the same but then why should it anyway?

At the end of last year I wanted to connect with others out there like myself as I was feeling quite lonely. I found myself drifting into a particular forum which I will not name. I was vulnerable due to all of the chaos I had been through and was looking outside of myself to gain clarity. The funny thing is, I do not care for forums these days. They have helped me in the past but I have now moved on from them. Well, it simply wasn’t for me and some of the belief systems that were being purported were quite scary to be honest. The ideas were far too dark for my palette probably due to all of the transmuting and releasing I have done over the years.  But it helped me to realise something. I felt I was meant to experience this to help me understand that no one truly has all the answers. Others hold a belief system depending on the experiences and what they believe to be true but it doesn’t necessarily make it right. Discernment has become a very important tool for me and I always get cold ripples of energy moving through me if I read something that resonates with me.

I feel that more and more of us are becoming our own guidance. We’ve journeyed through our ascension process over the years, read a lot of material, educated ourselves but it is up to us to find the answers that fit the journey we are presently taking. So I would like to say thank you to Karen and many others who have helped me understand what ascension is over the years but I think it is now time for me to go more within to find the answers. Maybe that’s what this Mercury retrograde period was forcing many of us to discover. I do feel like doors closed there was a finality, a kind of death in the energy that was in the air which was very evident, which I myself fell prey to. But with every ending there is always a new beginning if you choose.

Valentine St Aubyn


Tired, tired and more tired

When 2010 started I knew this was going to be one hell of a year.  Forget what was happening in the news in my own life my husband and I separated again for a second time and an aunt who I had had a long  and complicated history with committed suicide.  Change was on the horizon and I had to buck up and role with the dice whether I liked it or not.

So here we are in May2010 and the planet is definitely catching on fire, no pun intended. We’re experiencing an on-going volcano ash crisis in Europe, an oil spill that threatens our global ecosystem, countries going bankrupt ie. Greece, Spain, Portugal (and the UK who is not too far behind), mass death of political figures in Poland that has been proven not to be an accident, America and Iran firing off at one another and Thailand fighting for change.  We have certainly entered into some rather chaotic energy and boy are we living and feeling it.  In one of my previous posts I discussed just how tired I had been feeling as of late.  And it is not only me it is others as well.  I have come across, quite innocently, on  a forum I frequent although do not participate in others complaining of either sleeping too much or not sleeping at all.  Over the last few years I slept very little waking up 2 to 3 times a night.  It is part of the new sleep cycle many of us are experiencing and it drove me crazy.  It also intensified the anxiety that I was suffering with.  Now, I have been sleeping, sometimes 15 hours in a day and still barely can keep my eyes open.  When I work, which is for me writing, I can sustain about 5 hours maximum and then my whole body shuts down and is ready for a rest.

I recenty came across an article by Tom Kenyon, which has given me some needed new insights on the exhaustion I have been experiencing and so I share it with others as I know I am not alone in this.  Funny, this week especially I have barely had any energy to do anything and writing has been out of the question, today seems to be an oddity.  I then a couple of days ago realised that the Volcano in Iceland that has been causing much trouble for Europe has been at it again.  Stirring and erupting.  Most likely my body has been reacting to this latest eruption.  God knows what I will feel like when, I stress when, the sister Volcano Katla begins to erupt.  I assume I as many others will be bed ridden for the next couple of years!

Before I include Tom Kenyon’s article I would like to comment on the article that Karen Bishop has recently posted, ‘The Three Options.’  I am a great follower of Karen’s work and feel the movements that she describes without a doubt.  This last post really resonated with me and once I feel more stable within myself I will write an article articulating what I have been experiencing.  Within my feelings of tiredness and exhaustion I found this last week incredibly difficult emotionally.  One minute I’m fine the next I am crying.  The emotion has been deep and I have been unable to fight off some of the darkness I have been feeling.  It is interesting that in this latest post Karen discusses one of the options we have is death.  I had concluded to myself only yesterday before I read her latest post that if X,Y and Z had not happened to me by age 43 then I would like to be released and move on.  I did not know where this was coming from it is unlike me to think in these ways but obviously it must be something many of us are being faced with.  I like many others have lost alot and I am not even 4o yet.  Others of my age group are having babies and enjoying life while I sit and suffer in silence losing everything I have ever known in my life that has helped me define who I am.  Astroloically speaking I haven’t even hit the Uranus opposition which is supposed to bring on the mid-life crises phase. Life has been very challenging for me and I have had to experience great loss.  When you experience several large scale losses in life it becomes harder and harder to believe a bright future is ahead of you. So, I was actually relieved to read this from Karen and can completely relate to how she must be feeling.  I can feel the sadness in her words and have fully resonated with how she is feeling.  I feel for some of us these feelings are very raw and real.  In the next week or so I will elaborate on this a bit futher, but at the present time I do not feel ready to discuss these darker feelings that have been making me think of death quite yet.

Anyway, below is an article by Tom Kenyon which discusses the purpose of the earthquakes and volcanoes we are experiencing and how they are interrelated and impact us.  There is some very good information here that should help you answer why you have been feeling so tired.

Until next time.

Valentine St Aubyn